Do people always get emotional when they're unwell?

I am unwell.
I am sick.
And i am feeling really lousy at the moment.

I understand that there is absolutely no fairytale in real life where everything is perfect.
But even so, i do not think it is fair for my life to be so not perfect.

I pray pray and pray hoping that maybe there's still hope for me to go overseas but somehow i dont think this is happening.
Just fine ok.
But now, i am just hoping with all my heart for me to be healthy and can lead a life that all of my friends are having right now.
Why is it so hard to just grant me this wish?
Why do i have to have this bouts of fever and pain, worries of suspected dengue, and why do i have these rashes coming out that are so itchy i cant think straight?
And my family is not here with me.
Best friends not here with me.
And im left all alone to deal with my miserable life.

Its really not easy to be me.