SOme say, failure hurts, sucks, but it teaches. I hope this time round, failure teaches me how to be better, and how to excel in days to come. I have no right to rant, to complain, and this little setback in my life, i will overcome it, for sure. Cheers to holiday, and to days where i can sit back and really think about my life.

I would like to continue updating my blog and make it look really interesting and almost readable. Teach me how.

Stay extremely focused in achieving your dream. For as focus is there, nothing is impossible.

Procrastination is the thief of time

It takes so much to make myself determine to do some thing.
But it takes only so little to procrastinate.

Procrastination is not something that we need to learn.
I think it is already in our genes and is being passed down from generation to generation.
I believe no one likes it, but at the same time no one seem to be able to help it.
I really wish there's some kind of antidote to it, i need it badly.

Speaking of dentistry, there're tonnes of people who want to take up dentistry its beginning to annoy me.
Everytime when i go home, there's always "You know whowhowho is doing dentistry at wherewherewhere now", or "Hey his/her brother/sister chose dentistry, next time you'll have one more competitor".
Oh please. Like the sentence you say is going to make me drop dentistry.
And quite frankly, i dont give a shit bout having competitors or not.
When i become a dentist, all i want to do is to be good to patient and do whats best for them. Who cares about having that extra dentist beside you.
I dont think they can do much damage to my life anyways.

Another thing is, actually what is so wrong with having high expectation and wanting to be a perfectionist?
I have high expectation of myself.
Although i am super lazy(You have no idea), i still expect myself to do well and not being the average one.
I am the kind of people that will cry if i were to get anything less than a B.
I seriously hope there's more people out there who share the same thought as i am.
So at least i wont begin to feel i am an alien or something.

Just few more days before i begin my final year.
No more joke, whatever thats left behind, i need to sprint and catch things up.
Of course, its always easier said than done.
But the plus side of putting this down in my blog means i'll be able to read back and work on it everytime i see this post.
EOS9 = The final professional exam = The last paper exam of my dentistry life will be in August.
Its an integrated paper, no longer just ODS or OS or CDO or whatever. Everything will be integrated so lots of preparation need to be done.
I am aiming for an A.
I hope i'll be able to work towards my aim.
May my level of motivation stays skyhigh!!

There are times when things happen and you realize how foolish you are all these while.

To continue to hold on, or learning how to let go?

At this point, i have no clue.

Before it starts, everyone hope for a happily ever after.

But once you're in it, you start to doubt that happily ever after may be just another myth that people talk about.

I think one of my 2012 resolution is to not take things for granted.

I still practice it.

But why cant you? :(

Friends

The power of facebook is that,

someone can just tell you that dinner's off its been cancelled and
you find them being checked-in to a restaurant having dinner moments later.

Truth is, just because i dont have transport to meet them means they have to exclude me from their plan. What i think is, without a car is totally not a sin.I have true friends who treat me really nice and who are willing to pick me up when they know i dont have a car to drive around. But just cant help feeling slightly upset over those lousy friends who decide to go enjoy themselves without me because of the trouble to traveling to bukit jalil to give me a ride.

Worst of all,

I've always treat them as really good friends.

Oh well. Maybe they're not worth my dinner time after all.

Research is meant for people who has nothing better to do

Been pleading my study subjects to come for the clinical examination.

They dont answer your calls.
May be giving you fake numbers.
They may also answer, but tell you they're not free (although i know their timetable says they're so free).
They say ok i'll be there, and keeps you waiting miserably.


Phone bill's gonna go sky high this month, but still have so many to call.
FML FML FML!!
i hate research and i dont know how to make it interesting anymore! :(

Look forward to CNY.
I really cant wait for CNY to come fast!!
Keep hoping sem 8 can come to an end soon so i can have that miserable 2 weeks break before i am officially the final year student!!

Sweet dream

Going to bed hoping to have a sweet sweet dream.

I hope i can smile in my sleep :)

xoxo

Fat is fei

Back in vista, and so im back to the life where i need to be absolutely independent to take good care of myself.
Sitting in front of my bowl of home-cooked pasta, i have this urge to write about so many things i dont know where to start.

I can feel the boyfriend withdrawal symptom slowly creeping in.
Oh man, and who's going to go hunt for good food and who's going to watch movie with me? :(

Actually, i might as well just forget about the good food cos i've been gaining weight since awhile ago and have yet to shed them. CNY in 3 weeks time. I'll make sure i get rid of those excess fat by CNY. Nobody wants to look plump in CNY photos!!! :DD

With new year comes resolution

What i have gathered so far to be included into my new year resolution's list :)

Family : I should try to come back home more often, probably no lesser than once a month and especially if there's any special occassion or festival. I am glad i dont usually burden them with lots of trouble and i shall continue to do so.

Friends : I've not been a very good friend, cos i hardly catch up with high school or college mates, and also dont really hang out with my current course mate very much so, NOOOO, i must be a better person and hang out more with them. All in all, just try to be there as much as i can. who knows one day i might need them too.

Love : We're getting older, yes, and as the boy graduated and moved back home, i wont be able to see him as often anymore as i'll be in kl most of the time while he's just here. So, i can foresee some difficulties every now and then. Oh well, lets just see how it goes maybe absence really does makes heart grow fonder?

Money : 2011 was a disaster when it comes to money. For the many many years i've been living in KL, i think i spent the most in year of 2011. Bought a lot of what seemed like very important stuff which i feel is not-so-important to me anymore now. The shopaholic has got to crawl out of me this year. I cant promise to not spend at all, but in dire need to spend more wisely. I think i should try to chill everytime i have the urge to spend on anything at all, who knows maybe just few minutes later i'll calm down and walk out of that shop gracefully!

And most importantly............

Dentistry : Education that is. Believe it or not, i'll be a final year student by march 2012! Time passes by unbelievably fast, i can describe it as the speed of light. No joke. I have to confess that, the amount of classes i've missed in 2011 was way beyond the limit. I felt so guilty, but there're really some classes that i've missed that were like a neccessity for me. All i can say, for any class that i missed at all, i really have my own reason for it. Its my personal issue which i find it hard to share not even here. I know i suck, but everyone gotta have their own secret every now and then, dont they? OK the point is, in 2012, with less distraction*fingercross*, i shall TRY to ATTEND all the classes. I need to be more punctual although i cannot be 100% sure. I need to buck up and do my research properly because i really dont want to disappoint my supervisor, and prof toh as well. I need to also brush up on my clinical skills, soft skills, my knowledge especially!! I need to read more journals that are evidence-based, i need to be wiser. In short, i need to be what a proper dental professional should be!! If i were to have any difficulties at all, i should try to get help, approach my mentor or any lecturers, instead of avoiding and procrastinating what is to be done. Education wise, i have just too many resolutions and changes it just goes to show exactly how bad am i throughout these 4 years. Final year will be short and soon i'll be graduating already, i must make sure i end my BDS in style and with no regret.

Thankfully, after so many years, I am still loving dentistry.
No, truth is, dentistry, I am falling in love with you over and over again :)))

New year, new me, new hope!

Hello 2012!! :))

Been through alot throughout the year 2011 and here i am, welcoming 2012 with wide arms and with much love <3

Hell yeah, its the 1st of jan. Am so glad to be home, and have the time to update my spider web-by blog. I have decided not to change the layout of my blog, i am still liking this current one.

Oh well, new me meaning one fine day i just decided i want to get my hairstyle changed, either cut it real short, straighten it, or make it curl! In the end, upon professional consultation, i decided to go with digital perm although my hair is not long enough. I had only like 2 minutes to come up with a decision and so i did. And it ended up like this :



I know it doesnt look bad at all but then who would post a not-so-perfect photo of herself :P But anyway, i think the change is good and for a first timer, this perm is considered good enough already.

I hope no one will call me "auntie" because of the curls i have.