I love you

I love you more than a litter of Rottweiler puppies.
I love you more than barely catching the last bus of the night.
I love you more than a second cup of cocoa with marshmallows.
I love you more than pictures of fat babies with fake mustaches.

Awww how sweet :)

Greet the new sem with "LOVE"

Something just happened when you least expect it.
Aii sometimes you just cant help but to feel sorry for yourself.
Report is hanging somewhere in the middle, got my packing done but seem as though i kept a tonne of gold inside. I'll be so dead carrying them tomorrow.

Done with friday and i'll be back to the hectic world tomorrow :(
I do think the 2months break passes by way too fast before i even have the time to reflect on what i've been doing. I dont think i did much anyway, at least not according to what i've planned before this. Its annoying to know the bad habit still lingers around when you already prayed so hard for it to disappear.

Been trying to recall the series of events occuring this entire sem break, and honestly, im utterly disappointed with myself :(
Oh wellll, guess i shall look forward to a better sem(Eh a more productive sem i should say.Emm no it HAS TO BE PRODUCTIVE in one way or another).
My promise to myself :)

Will have to survive in Vista without internet for a couple of weeks and so i shall hibernate this blog for a while before i get back in action weeeee.
Wish me luck for the new semester, give me the strength to overcome all the obstacles and be much wiser than can be!!

Sem4 Here I Comeeeeee!!

Stupidooo

This is serious shit!
I wrote like 2 full paragraph of super funny stuff just now wanting to post them up in my blog.
And i accidentally deleted it.
How cool.

I certainly do not think i have the mood to rewrite the whole thing. The mood is no longer there. The anger is gradually building up.
And im going to scream now.

Friendly no more

Am reminding myself that the 260bucks spent on Gardasil will be as worth it as ever.
And am trying to stop calculating the amount of cash i spent this entire semester break because it all seem uncountable to me at the moment(Goes to show exactly how much i've spent until i myself am not clear now sigh)

Today is the most memorable day ever to the clinic i went to!
I've never seen such a crowded clinic, i mean private clinic, in my entire life.
And i've never waited so long to see the doctor plus...
I've never gotten such a fast injection ever as far as i remember correctly.

The actual situation is :
The nurse called my name > I entered the room > I saw the doctor already holding the syringe > I asked "Gardasil right?" > He answered "Yes" > I said "ok" > He said ok too(Which means he's done injecting me) > I said "Thank you doctor" before leaving.

I wonder do doctors these days act the same?

Oh and by the way did i tell you i saw the much beloved grandma and grandpa in the same clinic? Heh such a coincidence!

The sinful addiction

Im your biggest fan i'll follow you until you love me,
Papa paparazzi...


Promise i'll be kind,
but i wont stop until the boy is mine...

Dissatisfaction

Received an email containing the deadly timetable for my upcoming semester4. It was quite a disturbing one, i mean, 8.30 to 6.30 daily(I mean almost daily), and i can feel my energy gradually draining away due to the ever-so-packed schedule consisting of lectures and practicals and PBLs.

I strictly do not have the intention to rant about stuff i can no longer change, perhaps i just need to find a channel to pour out my feeling. I can talk about my dissatisfaction for hours but at the end of the day, i will stil accept whats in store for me with a open heart.

I bet it'll be something like this :
DAY1 - Totally drained and exhausted
DAY2 - Very exhausted
DAY3 - Exhausted but still bearable
DAY4 - Tired but getting used to it/adapting
DAY5 - Pretty ok?

And in days to come, it'll be a part of my routine and it'll be over in no time.
Im pretty sure it will :)
So afraid not girl, Life's still pretty good eh.

Reminding myself that...

I am 70days away before leaving the teenage world and stepping into the adult's world. Sometimes time passes by so fast it scares me a little. In a blink of an eye, im halfway through my second year of dentistry and one more year before i leave to whichever university IMU sending me to. Sometimes im a little annoyed by the impatience of time, unwilling to slow down in order for me to catch up. Well it all seems insignificant now. Look forward, is all i can say.

So, 70days from now, what will be on my mind?
I guess it'll be fun to have a mini trip to Genting("Casino") so i can actually stick out my tongue to the security guard and say "Lalala im 21 and you cant stop me oh too bad!". OK maybe thats a bit too bitchy for an adult-to-be. But it will be fun believe me.
I get to vote too. Thats not my main concern after all Malaysian's politic has been shaky ever since god knows when.
I can actually go to jail if i commit crime phew this scares the hell out of me!
But i dont think im as gullible/brainless as to do such a thing.

I guess all in all, my 21st birthday seems to take up a lot of my brain space as i've been thinking over and over again how shall i celebrate it. I have a whole lots of wishlist which im still unwilling to share for me, since im so indecisive and chances are i might change this and that every once in a while. So until then, im still not sure how my ultimate wishlist will be like :)

Im excited, yet scared.

Summary

Apart from dreadful sore throat, unproductive final days of sem break and sinfully tanned skin, i guess im doing fine here. Been back from Cambodia for 2days, spent much of my time trying to cure my sore throat and packing-unpacking stuff, and have yet to begin writing my elective report. Ahh a 10pages report. Shouldn be of much difficulty since i've been in Cambodia for like 10days, 1 page each day is fine.

So what did i learn from this elective? Oh well, LOTS!, to be honest.
I felt as though im one of the luckiest person in the entire world, blessed with great family and friends, blessed with abundant of food and resources, blessed with care and love at all time.
They might not be so lucky as i am.
Some are homeless, some are parentless, some foodless, loveless.
They seem to have nothing at all and i wonder do they feel happy, perhaps even once?
They do not know the world outside, they are constrain in their small small world and they have nothing to look forward to.
Heartache looking at kids like that but its the reality, isnt it?
I feel happy though, to be able to bring just a lil smile on their face in my super short 10days time in Cambodia.
Playing with them, taking care and teaching them.

When you're kind enough to be kind to others, you'll be happy in returns :)

Besides the working part, we've had the opportunity to visit Siem REap, 3days 2nights, visited Angkor Wat and stuff. It was an amazingly satisfying trip plus the shopping. lol. Plus the oh-so-dead-cheap alcoholic drinkssss!
Im not too sure if i should blog on everything i did over there in Cambodia or should i just summarize them into one. Anyway, I've got 1L of Baileys to be enjoyed. Lalalaaa~

~Treat others like how you want to be treated~

Back

Im back from Angkor-land.
Updates coming soon, when im less tired and less busy.
Ciao.