Tanning in your sunray :)

What time will you be here now?
Its a quarter past seven now, uhuh, and im waiting for you...

What you gonna do?When it hits you, you & me i, hold back my shine when i realise,
im getting my tan in your sunray...
And we see, through the mirror that you got me thinking clearer,
and im gonna be under your skies and stares....

Vera Wang

The Vera Wang advert

The one i saw is something similar to this! Lovely isnt it? :)

Shoppinggggg Spreeee!!!

Weeeee...just came back from Bukit Bintang!
Today, is officially my shopping day and also the day i announced myself "broke"...Argggghhhh!!!
Went out at bout 1plus and got home at 7.30pm.
Went by lrt to hang tuah and supposedly gonna take monorail to bukit bintang station but guess what? When i reach the monorail counter there's this auntie telling me monorail is not working, some technical problem. What the hell???!!
Luckily im the kind of person who can walk and know the way to pavilion from hang tuah station...so i walk n walk n walk...passed through times square, then sungei wang and finally stopped by Lot10...
The one and only reason i stopped by Lot10 is Isetan!! And this is where i got my top and my Guess purse! Yeah!
I totally have no idea how long i spent in Isetan, not like i care anyway, just browse through everything, bags and shoes and clothes and perfumes... I love the feeling man! lol.
And finally when i decided to leave Lot10 and go over to Pavilion, its already 4pm maybe?
Hungry hungry hungry!!!
So i went to pancake house to have a niceee meal...ordered a set that comes with coffee...i love pancake,i love coffee,i love just about everything! Except for the part where that WEIRDO actually charge rm1.25 just because i asked for extra butter... What is wrong with him??!
But anyway forget it, luckily the pancake is nice or else there's no way im ever going back to that place! Haha.
Next stop!Hmmm shop around pavilion, got myself a pair of heels, and yet another top.
That is all but guess whats my latest obsession?
VERA WANG PRINCESS!!!
My goodness the vera wang gift set in Tangs is like PERFECT!!!!
Soooooooo veryyyyyyyy prettyyyyy and attractiveeeeee and i LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE the smell!
How???? It costs like rm306 and by that time im already broke, as in really really really penniless. So, i can only see and admire and love it but not HAVE it. sighhhhh :(
Then again i went parkson to anna sui counter and found something interesting...
I guess in conjunction with christmas, there're a couple of promo packs which are quite affordable!! and i loveeee them still!
Its like a 30ml bottle of either secret wish or flight of fancy plus complementary body lotion, which costs like rm130!!
Another set i saw is like 2 bottles of secret wish, one blue and one pink, both 30ml for rm209...
Anyhow i got no money to buy then so no matter how affordable and attractive they are also i should just perish the thought...HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ!
So, i think thats about it for today. Happy day, happy outing.
Unfortunately, the flipside of the coin is, none other than, being broke and forced to quickly find a part time job and earn some moneyyyyy! Rawhh! and no more shopping for a couple of weeks, unless i find a job or something, oh and unless mummy is there to pay. LOL.
Im happy, wish he's here to share my happiness now :) I miss you! Yes no doubt its YOU!

Lost

I've no idea where's the guy i like went...
Seems like he's no longer here. no longer himself.
And im here waiting and hoping everything will be ok again.
LIfe's hard. sucks.

Of frustration and irritation

What the f***ing hell is his problem??
I happily went to sch waiting for him only to be greeted by that look, no hi, no smile, nothing.
Fine.
He wanted to meet his friend, so i waited downstair, and then when i met him again i ask "Where u wanna go?". Oh damn guessss i asked the wrong question again cos as far as im concerned he trying to say as though im asking him to decide every single thing in my life.
Fine.
Started to get sien. Even more sien when that look doesnt wanna go away.
And under such condition i know i should just go home, to avoid any sort of conflict.
Fine.
Then messages coming like nobody's business saying "i hate you. you make me sad. blablabla"
Oh come on!! Who the hell are you to even say u hate me when u started all these craps??
Do you even have the right to feel sad when im the one who's supposed to be sad?
And saying i broke my promise to acc him as he clean his room.
FINE FINE FINE.
Yeah i promised before so okay im no gonna break my promise.
OK.
Buy my lunch and walk over to his place.
Reach. Eat. Alone. For one instance i thought im invisible... to HIM at least.
Fine again.
Finished my lunch and he's happily sleeping.
HALLO???i thought u said u wanna clean the room?
ALRIGHT.Maybe i should start first since there're so much to do, thinking maybe he need help or something.
Asked for the key,enter the room, and heard him asking me something though not very clear.
OK so i should answer his question and i DIDDDDD answer his question, just that i cant talk as loud cos im having a bad sore throat.But u think he even CARE??? F*** OFF he's only good at screaming at me and accuse me for punishing him? What punishing him? What the f***ing punishment he meant? When did i ever punish him? Sometimes i think he's mad.
Hey come on! IM just a human ok? i've got feeling too ok? Wow u seriously think the way u treated me is worth praising?
Yeah right and now ur saying i caused all the suffering and pain and nonsense??
Ask YOURSELF is it YOUR problem or MINE??
Honestly im speechless now. I've NEVER met such a guy in my entire life and i wonder what did i do wrong to even know him. I cant believe such a happy day can be ruined just like that.
This is the worst experience ever...and seriously if this sort of thing were to happen even for once more i'll just have to stop this shit.
What am i suppose to do? Im trying to be good and again and again and again i've been misunderstood and ill-treated, just like shit.
For goodness sake, i've got no obligation to be like how you want it to be man.
Im me and thats it end of story.
No more argument. No more question.
Whether you like it not, take it or leave it.

Cute stuff

Oh btw i've this cutest umbrella ever...from 100yen jap shop...LOL bought it under desperate condition cos its raining and i forgot to bring my freaking umbrella.

Oh btw again, its a "so-called" gift from Tommy! Hahaha..
Time to bath dirty girl!

Eventful wednesday

Oh yeah im right here at KL now.

Reach home at about 3pm..unpack unpack unpack...

Went pyramid at 5pm,then Yuen at 6.30pm, back to pyramid at 8.30pm...

Something special

Yeah! Did something extraordinary today and feel contented!
Weeeee...
I love today!!
How about you?

Time to pack for tomorrow! KL here i come! :)

Goodbye emo

Aiks my blog is getting tense & emo nowadays.
I shall stop being emo come on its holiday now!

Will be going to kl tomorrow...
Want to, need to and will enjoy the rest of my holiday and
yeah stella will be at kl so yum chan session with her become possible again!
Lily too!Quickly finish ur freakin pharm exam and go out with me...Miss you!
And hopefully can meet my a-lvl friends i really miss those days.
Felix come back faster, u tell me more bout ur nus life and i tell you mine in imu!

I've been listening to hitz.fm everyday and i realised they really like to air just the few same songs, thank god the songs nowadays are quite acceptable...Oh btw, anyone with jay's latest song please inform me, i'll say thank you and be grateful dont worry :)

Just lil something

He & He

Last time i thought He's not as good as he is always not there for me whenever i think i need him, i think sometimes he irritate me, i think he is not as serious as i want him to be, and not the perfect someone i wish he could be.
Though he is different but he is quite like him and sometimes i wonder what am i doin with him?and now i think maybe i was wrong.and that maybe i made a mistake by involving him into the story of me and him.He is driving me crazy.I want out from him & him & him & him & him, if you know what i mean...

The return of ultimate calmness

Let me know when will calmness return safely to me...
Cos i wanna grab it so tightly so it can never escapes from me ever again.

Was hoping to travel to kl tomorrow, unfortunately no ticket left, so can only be back at kl on wednesday. wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun...Honestly the whole trip to kl seems purposeless and even until now i've no idea why the hell do i wanna go kl.Maybe to return the lib book and this reason is totally absurb.raaaaawwwwhhhhh!!!

How can such beautiful holiday be wasted? Wake up man.
and something is bugging me like mad nowadays...
Why the hell am i so emo nowadays? what drives me towards emo-ness???
My life is in a mess now and worst of all i cant seem to fix it right.
Bad. This is really bad.
People you need to tell me what to do...Oh darn no one's gonna read my blog anyway.
Guess i have to share my problem with someone else...
Save me save me save meeeeee...!
I wanna meet you for a long long time and talk talk talk endlessly about everything and do everything we've left outtttttttt for soooooo long....
U've got the wisest advice in the world and i trust u most!!!
I MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!

Sunday Morning

Nothing but loneliness...
I wonder when will i be alive, yet again...

What's wrong?

WHAT IS WRONG?

and why is this happening all the time?

This is weird, this is bad and this is totally out of control.

I hate this u know, honestly i really hate this!

And nothing can make me stop hating this...

I misssssssss those days a lottttttttt!!!

Where are they? Why arent they here any longer?

Come back to me...pls come back to me...

I cant take it anymore...

And this is exactly how i feel at the moment... :(

Mismatch decision

Life is hard sometimes.
and when i think about it, maybe im the one who chose to complicate my life when everthing can be just so simple.
What to do.
Decision is made. Everything is done.
There's no turning back.
Live with it and see what it leads to... eventually...

Worth it?

This, is selling for 150 bucks... worth it? sigh...

Xmas lover!

Yeah its the one and only time in the year where i can have my very own wishlist!
and its none other than christmas!
Since my birthday this year was a total mess with me freaking out over EOS, i shall make sure i enjoy the coming xmas as muchhhhh as possible :)

My current wishlist!!! As follows...
(1) Lovely lovely Anna sui~~~Flight of fancy, secret wish, u name it~
(2) A purse! Freaking desperate for one now that i lost mineee...
(3) L'occitane's shower gel, scrub and lotion luvvv da smell!
(4) Heels heels and more heels
(5) A nice, warm and comfy GAP sweater mmmm~
(6) Some inspiring books that may change my life?!

Feel so nice having a wishlist eventhough i know its quite impossible but its ok, im happy anyway. Till then. xoxo :)

Holiday

7 weeks of holiday actually starts today,maybe yesterday.
What should i do throughout this long long holiday?
I havent really think about it, probably because before this i was too busy trying to think about failing my exam and the need to resit...duhh...
Maybe i should find a part time job...and meanwhile be prepared for next semester...and study a lil here and there...just hoping i will not waste my whole precious holiday.

I still cant believe EOS is over.Think about it, i almost screwed up my entire eos.why?
Let me tell you why.Frankly shame on me to even thought of such a stupid thing to do.
The other day when i was sitting for my dental science paper, the questions are all so very very very difficult i couldnt even answer!!( Maybe thats because i skipped biofilm which is a stupid decision...) and under such situation i really couldnt think straight and i really thought of walking out of the exam hall without completing the paper, and tell my lecturer im just gonna sit for the resit paper. and i wanted to tell her i'll just skip the afternoon's ospe paper as well. thats what on my mind at that moment. and i wanted to cry. to run away. and when i look at the paper again my mind is totally blank. empty. imagine the fear i had...sigh...

Then again, eventually i completed the paper(though i leave some blank...) and for some questions i honestly just crapped :( Right after that i've got no mood for anything...and then there's ospe, which is the last paper. I thought im gonna fail so forget about it, and then people keep saying its the last paper, just do everything you can and it'll be over soon. Tommy said forget the saq just do well in ospe and no regret. And so thats exactly what i did. i left everything behind and just concentrate on ospe. In the end yah there's some questions that i totally cannot do.but at least i tried my best for the others. so i learnt something through this freaking exam...
never give up, never think of "no" and "impossible", cos you never know...Just as i thought im gonna fail, in the end i got a B+. how lucky and how thankful im...Sooooo....I'll remember this lesson well, for the rest of my life.

All of a sudden i think the childish,naive,ignorant emmy is gone.
Emmy, finally, is growing up.

Thank you :)

Thank you for letting me pass my exam.
Thank you for giving me a chance to proceed to sem3.
Thank you for making me believe that everything is possible.

IMPOSSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE :)

I really dont know exactly what the hell am i trying to do here...
stupid girl.

Why

Why always accuse me for being angry...
Why always think i dun wanna talk to you...
Why keep saying these everyday...
Sigh...sigh sigh sigh...

Absent-mindedness

I was just wondering when will i be happy once again...
Missing someone!
Sigh....

Pass.Just pass.

I hope i can pass.
This is the only thing i can hope for for now...till 14th nov...
i dont even mind getting a C, or the lowest in the whole class, or being laughed whatever it is,
i just wish i can pass this exam.

IM DESPERATE...very very desperate.
Never felt like this before in my entire life and here i m hoping to pass every single second of my life i cant even enjoy the holiday properly.
I just dont wanna resit i hope this is not too much to ask,
not that i never study for the exam...i did, i really did...

I NEED A CHANGE.
If i were to pass this exam, i will do anything for the coming semesters. i will study like mad like crazy like xiao like sot and will make sure the next coming eos will be the best and the best and the best!!!i promise!
No i should say I SWEAR I WILL.
Just let me pass through this first and most difficult hurdle pls...for once...
and i will be thankful for the rest of my life...

Come on Emmy 24 hours from now your life will be colourful once again!! :)

Nothing but folly

I totally cant believe i got that wrong.
Carbapenem for gram positive bacteria!!!!!!!!!!
What the hell was i thinking just now?
Mixed n jumbled up everything, thats the only thing im good for.
im officially good for nothing... sigh...

Disastrous opening, hopefully not ending

I've just come to know exactly how disastrous an exam can be.
It is beyond imagination, seriously im really screwed!
Is it the time, the syllabus, or is it me?
Maybe i should just accept the fact that im only one of the dumb girls around that are never meant to even be here.

Feeling bad and unmotivated. Plus tonnes of stress, doubts and fear.
Eos, ur just so mean to me.
Why cant u just be kinder, as if u'll listen to me.

Best of luck

To me, "thymus", and fellow batchmates,
Best of luck for tomorrow's EOS!
We can do it and we'll all sail through this exam...
To IMU,see you again in Sem3...

Try your best and no regret!
~xoxo~

Getting it right

I hope this time, i can at least make things right.
Things will work out in the end, and this is exactly what i've been believing...
Be positive, be grateful, have faith!