Call me paranoid.
But i really dont like the kind of look i get from all these people around me.

"Eh u not PDS meh?"
"How come you are here wan?"
"You came this morning for lecture??"

I've been trying to think so positively, and i explained my situation to every single one who asked such questions.

But someone told me right to my face "If like this then why you applied for PDS option in the first place?"

I didnt know how to answer.

I continued my work.

And i came home to cry.

It is not my fault that i cant go.

I really do feel sorry for myself for not being able to.

I am sorry i took up that one precious space that could have been taken by others who deserve the space more than i am.

I am sorry for everything.

I just wish people can be nicer to me and understand the pain i have for having to stay.

:(