The reason

I need an answer to my question.
I need to get rid of all the unhappy memories so that the good one will come flowing in...
I need reassurance that whatever i do, its not going to be yet another mistake...

Sad to say, Im really tired. Tired of this game.
Life aint easy ever since god knows when... :(

Do you know its really really tough for you to move on when someone is still there, constantly reminding you of all those unhappiness and there you're again, leave you thinking about the same sad story again and again, get upset once again, have a 'GREAT' argument once again, cry once again, and then.....finally after allll the repetition, you realise its time to move on once and for all (Hoping that particular someone can for goodness sake plsssss stop bugging me about the same old issue!!) HAIZZZ i really never thought it can be this hard...trying to make people to forgive and forget.

IM here to tell you about me. According to my friends, im the kind of girl thats quiet, kinda cool(wateva they mean..duhh), straightforward(meaning i say whatever i want), and so, im quite positive i dont scold people or raise my voice for no reason...thennn?? Why cant all those problem be resolved?/I really would like to know the exact answer but who is there to tell me?
Im afraid no one would be able to... sigh...

I dont expect, and never dare to expect anything...
All i want is just to be happy, to have someone there for me whenever i need him (of cos i wouldnt blame if something important or emergency but not ignoring me for no valid reason), to have someone who care about me, able to sense what is wrong with me (u know, like when i fall sick or whatever..), able to call me once in a while to let me know that he do think of me and remember my existence in his life..., to adore me, better still to treat me like a princess but obviously that is way too much to ask.... But i cant help it im a girl who needs to be loved and cared for. how??!!

Practically speaking im trying very very hard to adapt to my kinda lifestyle now...
I know everyone differs from each other and that i cannot expect so much from a person, just as i dont want others to expect so much from me. But a lil, im ok...if it gets too bad, i'll start to cryyy! I have no clue what else should i include in this particular post, its just so random. All random thoughts out of nowhere....

I sincerely hope good times gonna come and stay with me, will never ever slip away...
I miss the good times, i abhor the bad times!!! I cant wait to filed all the sweet memories in my long term memory...and to chuck all the bad one away so i'll have more more more spaces available for storage of more good memories in days to come (If there's any)...

Do you think its possible?
Too much to ask for again this time?
You know who you are, will you do this for me?