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Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
30th December 2008
Today is the 2nd last day of the year 2008.
How fast, how time flies.
This time last year, what was i?
A part-time bookstore assistant? A cashier, serving customers, sorting out books.
This year?
Idling at home, enjoying my holiday but at the same time feeling so darn bored. Thinking about life.
Next year?
Perhaps enjoying my life even more, with someone i love dearly and be a kind senior in IMU.
LOL, but who knows?
This time last year,
i was struggling whether to choose medicine at imu, or medicine at monash, or dentistry at pidc.
was choosing which one i like best, not to forget the exorbitant tuition fees.
But how funny, in the end, i chose none of them.
I made my choice.
BDS at IMU.
And since then, i never look back.
And now, proudly, i completed my first year.
You hear me right, im officially a second year dental student.
Think about it, its sort of a miracle, to think i can even be in a med school.
Expectations are high, requirements are high(Mayb imu is a bit of an exception, but that doesnt mean its easy to study at imu! :P), competitions are inevitable, fellow batchmates are all genius-like.
Who am i? What can i offer?
Laugh it off... cos i myself dont have an answer.
This time last year, i was a kid.
Ignorant kid, to be precise.
Now, i dont claim myself as a "know-it-all" adult being,
perhaps, just perhaps,
im less ignorant.
And this is more than enough.
How fast, how time flies.
This time last year, what was i?
A part-time bookstore assistant? A cashier, serving customers, sorting out books.
This year?
Idling at home, enjoying my holiday but at the same time feeling so darn bored. Thinking about life.
Next year?
Perhaps enjoying my life even more, with someone i love dearly and be a kind senior in IMU.
LOL, but who knows?
This time last year,
i was struggling whether to choose medicine at imu, or medicine at monash, or dentistry at pidc.
was choosing which one i like best, not to forget the exorbitant tuition fees.
But how funny, in the end, i chose none of them.
I made my choice.
BDS at IMU.
And since then, i never look back.
And now, proudly, i completed my first year.
You hear me right, im officially a second year dental student.
Think about it, its sort of a miracle, to think i can even be in a med school.
Expectations are high, requirements are high(Mayb imu is a bit of an exception, but that doesnt mean its easy to study at imu! :P), competitions are inevitable, fellow batchmates are all genius-like.
Who am i? What can i offer?
Laugh it off... cos i myself dont have an answer.
This time last year, i was a kid.
Ignorant kid, to be precise.
Now, i dont claim myself as a "know-it-all" adult being,
perhaps, just perhaps,
im less ignorant.
And this is more than enough.
レミオロメン － 粉雪
Be grateful to every single wonderful thing that happened in your life.
People often learn to appreciate only after they lost it.
Dont be,
Dont be one of them.
Look at all that you have right now.
Reflect.
Be grateful that although it could be better, it could be worse as well.
So...
Smile.
Be happy.
Just like her.
And live life with no regret.
People often learn to appreciate only after they lost it.
Dont be,
Dont be one of them.
Look at all that you have right now.
Reflect.
Be grateful that although it could be better, it could be worse as well.
So...
Smile.
Be happy.
Just like her.
And live life with no regret.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Ill
Im ill,
but that doesnt mean i can stop worrying about that little something.
What a life.
Un-block my nose, Un-sore my throat, Un-pain my head.
I dun wanna be at ur mercy...
but that doesnt mean i can stop worrying about that little something.
What a life.
Un-block my nose, Un-sore my throat, Un-pain my head.
I dun wanna be at ur mercy...
Sunday, December 28, 2008
改变
变就是变。
坏了就是坏了。
不一样了就是不一样了。
还能怎样？
说不完的不快乐，有谁愿意听？
Nobody give a damn about me, and thats why im better off invisible...
坏了就是坏了。
不一样了就是不一样了。
还能怎样？
说不完的不快乐，有谁愿意听？
Nobody give a damn about me, and thats why im better off invisible...
Getting sick at the wrong time
Sick, yet again.
Sigh to the max!!!
It wouldnt even let me off oh come on its the last 3 days of 2008 and you want me to celebrate my new year with flu and sore sore sore throat? This is so mean.
And the fact that my darn flu is making me unable to have some peaceful sleep is enough to frustrate me. I wonder what did i do to receive such treatment. :(
Hmm its time for me to think of my new year resolution now.
And so I...
(1) decided that it might be a better choice to stay ........... for life.
(2) gotta work harder for the coming sems because i dont wanna risk having to struggle over passing an exam, anymore.
(3) shop less, and to replace those times with meaningful stuff.
(4) should take up a lesson or something, to prove im at least not useless lol.
(5) must learn how to take it easy, easy come, easy go, no hard feeling.
(6) should clearly record down all my aims in life and work towards them :)
(7) will learn ways to save money so i can be more stable financially, wahaha.
(8) should stop giving a damn about every single thing happening around me because i realised the more i care the more trouble i end up with.
(9) will not skip classes and must pay attention when the lecturer is talking, for goodness sake.
(10) shouldnt trust anybody at all because chances are, i wouldnt wanna know how much harm it caused when this trust is no longer there.
(11) will stop finding excuses and go jogging frequently.
Too sick to continue listing my resolutions so i shall stop.
Something on my mind now.
"Whatever you said lo"... This sentence, i now announce, is officially the number 1 sentence i hate most in my entire life.
Until i find some other stupid sentences to replace this stupid sentence, whoever who say this will directlybe in my "enemy list". Arghhhh.
Sigh to the max!!!
It wouldnt even let me off oh come on its the last 3 days of 2008 and you want me to celebrate my new year with flu and sore sore sore throat? This is so mean.
And the fact that my darn flu is making me unable to have some peaceful sleep is enough to frustrate me. I wonder what did i do to receive such treatment. :(
Hmm its time for me to think of my new year resolution now.
And so I...
(1) decided that it might be a better choice to stay ........... for life.
(2) gotta work harder for the coming sems because i dont wanna risk having to struggle over passing an exam, anymore.
(3) shop less, and to replace those times with meaningful stuff.
(4) should take up a lesson or something, to prove im at least not useless lol.
(5) must learn how to take it easy, easy come, easy go, no hard feeling.
(6) should clearly record down all my aims in life and work towards them :)
(7) will learn ways to save money so i can be more stable financially, wahaha.
(8) should stop giving a damn about every single thing happening around me because i realised the more i care the more trouble i end up with.
(9) will not skip classes and must pay attention when the lecturer is talking, for goodness sake.
(10) shouldnt trust anybody at all because chances are, i wouldnt wanna know how much harm it caused when this trust is no longer there.
(11) will stop finding excuses and go jogging frequently.
Too sick to continue listing my resolutions so i shall stop.
Something on my mind now.
"Whatever you said lo"... This sentence, i now announce, is officially the number 1 sentence i hate most in my entire life.
Until i find some other stupid sentences to replace this stupid sentence, whoever who say this will directlybe in my "enemy list". Arghhhh.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Shopaholic me
Today is my 4th day at KL,
and all i can say is,
IM done with shopping.
Enough is enough, and 2009's first resolution is none other than,
"NO shopping for the first 3months of 2009".
Not not entering or goin to shopping mall, but not to buy anything at all.
And seriously i need to save half of my allowance every month for at least 2-3 months so i can stop feeling guilty for using up my money.
Now that i've got myself some new year clothes, i should stop complaining and be happy for myself :)
and all i can say is,
IM done with shopping.
Enough is enough, and 2009's first resolution is none other than,
"NO shopping for the first 3months of 2009".
Not not entering or goin to shopping mall, but not to buy anything at all.
And seriously i need to save half of my allowance every month for at least 2-3 months so i can stop feeling guilty for using up my money.
Now that i've got myself some new year clothes, i should stop complaining and be happy for myself :)
Monday, December 22, 2008
Travelll
From Jb to KL,
From KL back to Jb,
Bus alone is driving me crazy.
Thanks to Colby, Ying and the rest...
But anyway can meet up with stella hope she done with her assignment!
Not bringing my laptop to KL with me this time, i hope i'll survive the next few days without it.
Rawhhh.
And i hope i wont come back telling you that im broke, once again =)
From KL back to Jb,
Bus alone is driving me crazy.
Thanks to Colby, Ying and the rest...
But anyway can meet up with stella hope she done with her assignment!
Not bringing my laptop to KL with me this time, i hope i'll survive the next few days without it.
Rawhhh.
And i hope i wont come back telling you that im broke, once again =)
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Dream
第一次用华语，感觉有点奇怪。
我想我最近的心情不算太好，因好久好久没哈哈大笑了。
为什么心情不好，好像连我自己都不知道，好傻对吧？
感觉上人人都在享受着暑假的欢乐，而我呢？想东想西，烦死了。
想了那么久有了个结论，那还好。
最惨的是，不论我花多少时间去想，到了最后我仍然没有一个肯定的答案。
怎么我那么失败啊？
我脑袋里装的到底是什么啊？
心，想得又是什么？
是否有人能告诉我？
在爱情世界里，你喜欢我，我喜欢你，你爱我，我爱你，你恨我，我又恨你。
我真的不了解到底是为了什么？这样开心吗？幸福吗？
天长地久，真的有这一回事吗？
我承认以前的我，我相信。
但现在的我，真的很怀疑天长地久的存在。
也许只能在童话故事里找到。
也许在一百对情侣当中，就只有一两对能在一起直到永远。
而我，也应该不会是哪一两对的其中之一。
是时候醒了，不该再做梦，不该再抱着任何希望，不该再相信会有奇迹的出现。
因为，奇迹会发生在任何人身上，除了我，除了我。。。。。
我想我最近的心情不算太好，因好久好久没哈哈大笑了。
为什么心情不好，好像连我自己都不知道，好傻对吧？
感觉上人人都在享受着暑假的欢乐，而我呢？想东想西，烦死了。
想了那么久有了个结论，那还好。
最惨的是，不论我花多少时间去想，到了最后我仍然没有一个肯定的答案。
怎么我那么失败啊？
我脑袋里装的到底是什么啊？
心，想得又是什么？
是否有人能告诉我？
在爱情世界里，你喜欢我，我喜欢你，你爱我，我爱你，你恨我，我又恨你。
我真的不了解到底是为了什么？这样开心吗？幸福吗？
天长地久，真的有这一回事吗？
我承认以前的我，我相信。
但现在的我，真的很怀疑天长地久的存在。
也许只能在童话故事里找到。
也许在一百对情侣当中，就只有一两对能在一起直到永远。
而我，也应该不会是哪一两对的其中之一。
是时候醒了，不该再做梦，不该再抱着任何希望，不该再相信会有奇迹的出现。
因为，奇迹会发生在任何人身上，除了我，除了我。。。。。
Friday, December 19, 2008
The story within
Now,
I see the light.
And this light, eventually brings me into believing that nothing lasts forever.
Everything comes & goes away,
So are you and so am i.
I fell, people dont pull me back up, you dont pull me back up,
People push me further away,
You pushes me 1000 miles further,
Whats the point? Yeah i asked myself whats the point?
And now i know,
As time goes by, people just tend to drift apart and when that distance increases from day to day, you just know, that nothing, can ever save it back.
I now know,
I now learnt,
I now accept.
I see the light.
And this light, eventually brings me into believing that nothing lasts forever.
Everything comes & goes away,
So are you and so am i.
I fell, people dont pull me back up, you dont pull me back up,
People push me further away,
You pushes me 1000 miles further,
Whats the point? Yeah i asked myself whats the point?
And now i know,
As time goes by, people just tend to drift apart and when that distance increases from day to day, you just know, that nothing, can ever save it back.
I now know,
I now learnt,
I now accept.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Hatred. Anger. Doomsday.
Not positive. My blog, once again, is gonna transform into a negative one.
Hurt, probably the one and only word to describe how i feel at the moment.
Im beginning to hate everything and everyone in the world.
Its just so easy to hate someone, but aint easy to start to love someone.
Then again, once you started to love someone, its uber difficult to "un-loved" them.
So should i love, hate or be neutral?
Hurt, probably the one and only word to describe how i feel at the moment.
Im beginning to hate everything and everyone in the world.
Its just so easy to hate someone, but aint easy to start to love someone.
Then again, once you started to love someone, its uber difficult to "un-loved" them.
So should i love, hate or be neutral?
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
A sad part 2
Sad, pathetic, unfortunate dream.
Such a shame this is even happening to me.
I wanted to cry and yet there isnt tears coming out.
I wanted to die but im just too young for that.
I wanted to slam the door as hard as i can but it clearly can never solve the problem im facing now.
Oh god, such a thing is really really new to me.
I never expect things to get this complicated, frankly i thought its all under control, little did i know, all of a sudden thing gets totally out of control, and im here, left all alone to clean up the mess i've done to myself, and to people around me. It may be just another common problem ppl tend to have in lives but maybe people just live with it and go along with it. But for me, no, i cant. I cant pretend as if everything will be ok and everything will be back to normal sooner or later. No its not normal this time... Im pretty much sure of it. In fact its getting trickier day by day. What have i done?
I've learnt my lesson but, i hope its not too late. I have a feeling, its really not going to be the same anymore this time. Thing changes every now and then, but once any sort of changes occur, u will never know how long it takes to return to normalcy. to heal. to be perfect once again.
Let it be? NO...
Fight for it? Should i?
I think im just plain evil...and this is clearly my punishment for being such a whatever.
Punish me. But let this be over. Dun let it be like some sort of sequel or stupid series that lasts forever. You know i cant take it, right? You know i cant. And if you're still not sure, im telling you now...
Such a shame this is even happening to me.
I wanted to cry and yet there isnt tears coming out.
I wanted to die but im just too young for that.
I wanted to slam the door as hard as i can but it clearly can never solve the problem im facing now.
Oh god, such a thing is really really new to me.
I never expect things to get this complicated, frankly i thought its all under control, little did i know, all of a sudden thing gets totally out of control, and im here, left all alone to clean up the mess i've done to myself, and to people around me. It may be just another common problem ppl tend to have in lives but maybe people just live with it and go along with it. But for me, no, i cant. I cant pretend as if everything will be ok and everything will be back to normal sooner or later. No its not normal this time... Im pretty much sure of it. In fact its getting trickier day by day. What have i done?
I've learnt my lesson but, i hope its not too late. I have a feeling, its really not going to be the same anymore this time. Thing changes every now and then, but once any sort of changes occur, u will never know how long it takes to return to normalcy. to heal. to be perfect once again.
Let it be? NO...
Fight for it? Should i?
I think im just plain evil...and this is clearly my punishment for being such a whatever.
Punish me. But let this be over. Dun let it be like some sort of sequel or stupid series that lasts forever. You know i cant take it, right? You know i cant. And if you're still not sure, im telling you now...
Wake up, its late, work things out.
Just got back from singapore...Nothing much been done but nevertheless its way better than to idle around at home, or shop. Went last sunday and got back around noon today, it was a very short trip indeed but at least it allowed me to briefly catch up with whats going on in singapore so far. This year, sorry to have to say this, but the christmas deco sucks like... aww it is really unacceptable even to me! Let alone those who takes xmas seriously. Too bad.
I wasnt expecting much for this trip, actually its kinda last minute.
Its like :
Me : When you leaving for singapore, u driving right?
Bro : Soon. Yah driving why?
Me : Oh can i go??? i'll follow you but i'll be meeting my friend over there
Bro : Are you sure? Ask mum 1st
Me: Yea sure.
The thing is, i havent even pack my stuff, havent even do anything and my brother is already on the way out. wth. Haha. he must be thinking he has a mad sister or something. But anyhow i manage to follow his car to his place at Pasir Ris... He actually dropped me at one of the shopping mall and he said he gonna go for futsal or soccer at the park. Duhh. And then we actually planned to have dinner at maybe ikea but in the end somehow we went elsewhere...another mistake! I miss ikea food :(
Then, met up with cheryl blablabla, the next day is basically all abour orchard, shopping, meals, coffee, and dinner with cheryl plus amanda plus timothy @ Spagheddies. Food was ok, but we're all glad we get to sit and rest our legs lol! And luckily we did rest for a while there cos right after we had to stand in the bus like all the way back to Tampines... Kinda tiring but what more can i expect? Hmm.
And then comes today, pretty normal, came back home but one thing is, the new custom sucks too. I find it much more inconvenient and its not that nice after all. Hah...so much for my mini trip to singapore...
I wasnt expecting much for this trip, actually its kinda last minute.
Its like :
Me : When you leaving for singapore, u driving right?
Bro : Soon. Yah driving why?
Me : Oh can i go??? i'll follow you but i'll be meeting my friend over there
Bro : Are you sure? Ask mum 1st
Me: Yea sure.
The thing is, i havent even pack my stuff, havent even do anything and my brother is already on the way out. wth. Haha. he must be thinking he has a mad sister or something. But anyhow i manage to follow his car to his place at Pasir Ris... He actually dropped me at one of the shopping mall and he said he gonna go for futsal or soccer at the park. Duhh. And then we actually planned to have dinner at maybe ikea but in the end somehow we went elsewhere...another mistake! I miss ikea food :(
Then, met up with cheryl blablabla, the next day is basically all abour orchard, shopping, meals, coffee, and dinner with cheryl plus amanda plus timothy @ Spagheddies. Food was ok, but we're all glad we get to sit and rest our legs lol! And luckily we did rest for a while there cos right after we had to stand in the bus like all the way back to Tampines... Kinda tiring but what more can i expect? Hmm.
And then comes today, pretty normal, came back home but one thing is, the new custom sucks too. I find it much more inconvenient and its not that nice after all. Hah...so much for my mini trip to singapore...
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Updates
Knowing that its holiday right now, not updating my blog is definitely a sin and so,
i dont have a choice here. hmmm.
Christmas is near, new year is near, its "THE" time again to make a whole long list of new year resolutions, eventhough half the time i'll only fulfil tiny bits of them. Anyway, resolutions should not be revealed now, not till the last week of december :)
Talking bout last week of december, it depresses me a lil, in the sense that, I've yet to accomplish some really really important tasks. Its not too late to change though. should i?
And hol, by right, should be the ultimate tv time but sadlyyy i cant grab hold of all the seasons and sooo i become UN-interested anymore... PPstream sucks cos it hangs in the middle of show and makes me scream WTH is going on??!
I got to know something interesting. I CAN actually live WITHOUT coffee lol!!
Its been days since i had coffee.
Oh darn, whats with the cappucinno i had with nishan yday?
Perhaps im still addicted to caffeine, somehow :(
i dont have a choice here. hmmm.
Christmas is near, new year is near, its "THE" time again to make a whole long list of new year resolutions, eventhough half the time i'll only fulfil tiny bits of them. Anyway, resolutions should not be revealed now, not till the last week of december :)
Talking bout last week of december, it depresses me a lil, in the sense that, I've yet to accomplish some really really important tasks. Its not too late to change though. should i?
And hol, by right, should be the ultimate tv time but sadlyyy i cant grab hold of all the seasons and sooo i become UN-interested anymore... PPstream sucks cos it hangs in the middle of show and makes me scream WTH is going on??!
I got to know something interesting. I CAN actually live WITHOUT coffee lol!!
Its been days since i had coffee.
Oh darn, whats with the cappucinno i had with nishan yday?
Perhaps im still addicted to caffeine, somehow :(
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Another Thursday
David cook - Always be my baby
T.I - Whatever you like
These are the songs i've been listening to for the whole day and still not bored with.
Hopelessly wasting my time away facebook-ing and all...crap.
I've a new resolution for 2009!!! And i wont be telling this to anyone but myself hehe.
Fot the time being i feel optimistic!
T.I - Whatever you like
These are the songs i've been listening to for the whole day and still not bored with.
Hopelessly wasting my time away facebook-ing and all...crap.
I've a new resolution for 2009!!! And i wont be telling this to anyone but myself hehe.
Fot the time being i feel optimistic!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Disturbance, A bad one.
Good day everyone, never know today will be the shittiest day ever for me, possibly in my entire life. Never had this feeling before, and thank you, today i finally get to learn such a thing.
I never deny the fact that throughout the world there are all sorts of people from all walks of life, but overprotective, uber "old-fashioned" mentality, and 100% no room for trust, this kind of people, sigh, unfortunately is right here in my family. Oh well, ALWAYS here in fact & worse still, its never ever going to CHANGE!
Great. How lucky am i to be born in such family.
I've got no freedom, no say, nothing at all and yet i've survived for the past 20 years. So what now? I've to come to a point where i find this totally insane and unacceptable.
Im mad. yes
Im pissed. yes
I so need time to cool down. yes
But after this can i be sure the same thing will not repeat again. NO!!! Yeah u heard me right, no.
What should i do? Only God knows cos if i know the answer, i would have already come out of this maize ages ago. Im still trapped in here, struggling, wanting to escape but how?
I dont need anything but trust. Yes, trust is the perfect word.
All these years, i've come to learn to hide and to use my own method of solving problems.
Its been fine, until this.
This, fos goodness sake, is just too much to handle.
U cant follow your heart, u cant follow your feeling, you cant do anything but to obey,obey and still obey. Even being obedient is never enough. NEVER.
Im getting sick, annoyed, and possibly breakdown... Yes, its this bad.
Think of my life, its not as simple as it seems to be, not as blissful, not as happy, not as carefree, not as POSITIVE as everyone else.
To live with it? To fight it?
Whichever way, i'll still end up being unhappy so whats the point? What exactly is the point?
And so...I choose to escape.
I never deny the fact that throughout the world there are all sorts of people from all walks of life, but overprotective, uber "old-fashioned" mentality, and 100% no room for trust, this kind of people, sigh, unfortunately is right here in my family. Oh well, ALWAYS here in fact & worse still, its never ever going to CHANGE!
Great. How lucky am i to be born in such family.
I've got no freedom, no say, nothing at all and yet i've survived for the past 20 years. So what now? I've to come to a point where i find this totally insane and unacceptable.
Im mad. yes
Im pissed. yes
I so need time to cool down. yes
But after this can i be sure the same thing will not repeat again. NO!!! Yeah u heard me right, no.
What should i do? Only God knows cos if i know the answer, i would have already come out of this maize ages ago. Im still trapped in here, struggling, wanting to escape but how?
I dont need anything but trust. Yes, trust is the perfect word.
All these years, i've come to learn to hide and to use my own method of solving problems.
Its been fine, until this.
This, fos goodness sake, is just too much to handle.
U cant follow your heart, u cant follow your feeling, you cant do anything but to obey,obey and still obey. Even being obedient is never enough. NEVER.
Im getting sick, annoyed, and possibly breakdown... Yes, its this bad.
Think of my life, its not as simple as it seems to be, not as blissful, not as happy, not as carefree, not as POSITIVE as everyone else.
To live with it? To fight it?
Whichever way, i'll still end up being unhappy so whats the point? What exactly is the point?
And so...I choose to escape.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Trips trips and more trips!!!
I wanna go for trips!!!
Desperate, yearning and so need trips this holiday!
Penang, Genting, KL, Malacca, Christmas eve, Christmas day, New year eve, New year 2009!!!
Woohoo someone bring me please!!!
Food is unimportant im fat enough its alright, its all about relaxing and sight seeing and enjoying my hol while i can...
But how? When no one is even free to bring me there. Everyone with works and tight schedule, and no companion, or no money.
This sort of pathetic situation is not the first time, and deep down i know it wont be the last time as well so...tell me what to do.
Guess this is how my life gotta be haiz...
Desperate, yearning and so need trips this holiday!
Penang, Genting, KL, Malacca, Christmas eve, Christmas day, New year eve, New year 2009!!!
Woohoo someone bring me please!!!
Food is unimportant im fat enough its alright, its all about relaxing and sight seeing and enjoying my hol while i can...
But how? When no one is even free to bring me there. Everyone with works and tight schedule, and no companion, or no money.
This sort of pathetic situation is not the first time, and deep down i know it wont be the last time as well so...tell me what to do.
Guess this is how my life gotta be haiz...
Monday, December 8, 2008
Romeo & Juliet :)
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know
That you were Romeo
You were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go
And I said Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while
Oh, oh, oh
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go
And I said Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and he pulled out a ring
And said Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, oh, oh, oh
We were both young when I first saw you...
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know
That you were Romeo
You were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go
And I said Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while
Oh, oh, oh
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go
And I said Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and he pulled out a ring
And said Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, oh, oh, oh
We were both young when I first saw you...
Sunday, December 7, 2008
The reason
I need an answer to my question.
I need to get rid of all the unhappy memories so that the good one will come flowing in...
I need reassurance that whatever i do, its not going to be yet another mistake...
Sad to say, Im really tired. Tired of this game.
Life aint easy ever since god knows when... :(
Do you know its really really tough for you to move on when someone is still there, constantly reminding you of all those unhappiness and there you're again, leave you thinking about the same sad story again and again, get upset once again, have a 'GREAT' argument once again, cry once again, and then.....finally after allll the repetition, you realise its time to move on once and for all (Hoping that particular someone can for goodness sake plsssss stop bugging me about the same old issue!!) HAIZZZ i really never thought it can be this hard...trying to make people to forgive and forget.
IM here to tell you about me. According to my friends, im the kind of girl thats quiet, kinda cool(wateva they mean..duhh), straightforward(meaning i say whatever i want), and so, im quite positive i dont scold people or raise my voice for no reason...thennn?? Why cant all those problem be resolved?/I really would like to know the exact answer but who is there to tell me?
Im afraid no one would be able to... sigh...
I dont expect, and never dare to expect anything...
All i want is just to be happy, to have someone there for me whenever i need him (of cos i wouldnt blame if something important or emergency but not ignoring me for no valid reason), to have someone who care about me, able to sense what is wrong with me (u know, like when i fall sick or whatever..), able to call me once in a while to let me know that he do think of me and remember my existence in his life..., to adore me, better still to treat me like a princess but obviously that is way too much to ask.... But i cant help it im a girl who needs to be loved and cared for. how??!!
Practically speaking im trying very very hard to adapt to my kinda lifestyle now...
I know everyone differs from each other and that i cannot expect so much from a person, just as i dont want others to expect so much from me. But a lil, im ok...if it gets too bad, i'll start to cryyy! I have no clue what else should i include in this particular post, its just so random. All random thoughts out of nowhere....
I sincerely hope good times gonna come and stay with me, will never ever slip away...
I miss the good times, i abhor the bad times!!! I cant wait to filed all the sweet memories in my long term memory...and to chuck all the bad one away so i'll have more more more spaces available for storage of more good memories in days to come (If there's any)...
Do you think its possible?
Too much to ask for again this time?
You know who you are, will you do this for me?
I need to get rid of all the unhappy memories so that the good one will come flowing in...
I need reassurance that whatever i do, its not going to be yet another mistake...
Sad to say, Im really tired. Tired of this game.
Life aint easy ever since god knows when... :(
Do you know its really really tough for you to move on when someone is still there, constantly reminding you of all those unhappiness and there you're again, leave you thinking about the same sad story again and again, get upset once again, have a 'GREAT' argument once again, cry once again, and then.....finally after allll the repetition, you realise its time to move on once and for all (Hoping that particular someone can for goodness sake plsssss stop bugging me about the same old issue!!) HAIZZZ i really never thought it can be this hard...trying to make people to forgive and forget.
IM here to tell you about me. According to my friends, im the kind of girl thats quiet, kinda cool(wateva they mean..duhh), straightforward(meaning i say whatever i want), and so, im quite positive i dont scold people or raise my voice for no reason...thennn?? Why cant all those problem be resolved?/I really would like to know the exact answer but who is there to tell me?
Im afraid no one would be able to... sigh...
I dont expect, and never dare to expect anything...
All i want is just to be happy, to have someone there for me whenever i need him (of cos i wouldnt blame if something important or emergency but not ignoring me for no valid reason), to have someone who care about me, able to sense what is wrong with me (u know, like when i fall sick or whatever..), able to call me once in a while to let me know that he do think of me and remember my existence in his life..., to adore me, better still to treat me like a princess but obviously that is way too much to ask.... But i cant help it im a girl who needs to be loved and cared for. how??!!
Practically speaking im trying very very hard to adapt to my kinda lifestyle now...
I know everyone differs from each other and that i cannot expect so much from a person, just as i dont want others to expect so much from me. But a lil, im ok...if it gets too bad, i'll start to cryyy! I have no clue what else should i include in this particular post, its just so random. All random thoughts out of nowhere....
I sincerely hope good times gonna come and stay with me, will never ever slip away...
I miss the good times, i abhor the bad times!!! I cant wait to filed all the sweet memories in my long term memory...and to chuck all the bad one away so i'll have more more more spaces available for storage of more good memories in days to come (If there's any)...
Do you think its possible?
Too much to ask for again this time?
You know who you are, will you do this for me?
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Fat is back
Oh well according to angela, fat is back, for her a least and too bad she can never comment about me since i never see her again from the day we ended our a-lvl...
But angie honestly, fat is back for me too, u dun worry. shoot. the most pathetic part is the fact that fat that's back aint going away anymore, like some kind of super glue that sticks with u wherever you go.Believe me, sometimes they're even worse than super glue.
She said she look really chubby now and that she has muscle cos she does weighs...lol
I dun wanna have muscles all over so i guess i should just go for a jog every now and then.
Its free anyway, and i can jog with mum and i secretly hate the fact that her stamina is better than mine but duhhhh she's been jogging all these while...
You know how hard for me to have a niceeeee diet plan?
Salad...healthy, fresh, high in fibre, but too bad salad dressings can be really fattening...its a threat!
Wholemeal bread...too dull to eat just like that, too fattening to eat with the spread i like...
Fried food, oily food, desserts, chocs, ice cream, cakes all out of bound!
Oh shit goodbye my lovely cheeeezeeee...
Cant have too much coffee, too much tea, or too much milk too.
Why the hell am i still living damn it this isnt fun at all.
But good...this is when self-discipline comes into play.
And if everything goes well and smoothly as planned, then yeah congrates me because now is the critical period where even losing 1kg is considered great achievement...at least to me...wohoooo!
Work for it!
SELF-DISCIPLINE!!
But angie honestly, fat is back for me too, u dun worry. shoot. the most pathetic part is the fact that fat that's back aint going away anymore, like some kind of super glue that sticks with u wherever you go.Believe me, sometimes they're even worse than super glue.
She said she look really chubby now and that she has muscle cos she does weighs...lol
I dun wanna have muscles all over so i guess i should just go for a jog every now and then.
Its free anyway, and i can jog with mum and i secretly hate the fact that her stamina is better than mine but duhhhh she's been jogging all these while...
You know how hard for me to have a niceeeee diet plan?
Salad...healthy, fresh, high in fibre, but too bad salad dressings can be really fattening...its a threat!
Wholemeal bread...too dull to eat just like that, too fattening to eat with the spread i like...
Fried food, oily food, desserts, chocs, ice cream, cakes all out of bound!
Oh shit goodbye my lovely cheeeezeeee...
Cant have too much coffee, too much tea, or too much milk too.
Why the hell am i still living damn it this isnt fun at all.
But good...this is when self-discipline comes into play.
And if everything goes well and smoothly as planned, then yeah congrates me because now is the critical period where even losing 1kg is considered great achievement...at least to me...wohoooo!
Work for it!
SELF-DISCIPLINE!!
Lost good thing
Pull off my blindfold,
You just too cold,
Sold me the truth and baby i was
So sold
You might as well cut me up
phy-sic-cal-ly
U know
U got me on the edge of extremes
And i cant believe it
And dont know what to think
Summertime, my rhymes
were so lovesick
Now they so sick, cause they aint about love
Here's a pop lick- between us wasnt enough?
And i know..
I felt good times come
I thought they'd stay
Things undone
They become what may
Angels come, but left today,
And i let you slip away
Listen now
Burning empty
Still this cant be
Believe it or not- not
That happy
Hotel, motel
Free from my cell
But now left with no home
I want you to know
I never would have oh
Figured out that
Way you play me now
It could have been forever
Now it's bringing me down
The high and the low
Up and down we go
Put myself too close
Got burnt like toast
Feels like im sinking
In the dead sea
Dont really care
The space inside is so empty
It's like its over
Before its begun
This song is over
And so is our one...
You just too cold,
Sold me the truth and baby i was
So sold
You might as well cut me up
phy-sic-cal-ly
U know
U got me on the edge of extremes
And i cant believe it
And dont know what to think
Summertime, my rhymes
were so lovesick
Now they so sick, cause they aint about love
Here's a pop lick- between us wasnt enough?
And i know..
I felt good times come
I thought they'd stay
Things undone
They become what may
Angels come, but left today,
And i let you slip away
Listen now
Burning empty
Still this cant be
Believe it or not- not
That happy
Hotel, motel
Free from my cell
But now left with no home
I want you to know
I never would have oh
Figured out that
Way you play me now
It could have been forever
Now it's bringing me down
The high and the low
Up and down we go
Put myself too close
Got burnt like toast
Feels like im sinking
In the dead sea
Dont really care
The space inside is so empty
It's like its over
Before its begun
This song is over
And so is our one...
Friday, December 5, 2008
Unexpected story
Time to pray for him to rest in peace.
I might only saw him a couple of times, but still, he's a brother of one friend of mine...
Heard this unexpected news from weiling, he said "xxx's bro passed away...in an accident..."
I was like "WAT??"
He answered "yes..."
Ok........what a surprise. Not a good though. In fact its really really bad.
Whenever this kind of news reach me, it never fail to depress me for a few seconds...wondering why on earth is this even happening?
It never cross my mind that something like this will ever happen...
Yea correct, death is inevitable but...to die in such circumstances, i dunno, i feel bad,pity and uneasy.
I do not know what kind of guy he is obviously but i do know my friend loves him dearly, all of his friends love him dearly and of all the people, his parent...
Life, indeed, is unpredictable and anything can happen anytime...
Wake me up from my dream.
Shame on me for taking everything for granted all these while.
Let me hold on to this belief that from now on i shall cherish life and to live life to the fullest...
To Ziqin's bro, Rest In Peace...
I might only saw him a couple of times, but still, he's a brother of one friend of mine...
Heard this unexpected news from weiling, he said "xxx's bro passed away...in an accident..."
I was like "WAT??"
He answered "yes..."
Ok........what a surprise. Not a good though. In fact its really really bad.
Whenever this kind of news reach me, it never fail to depress me for a few seconds...wondering why on earth is this even happening?
It never cross my mind that something like this will ever happen...
Yea correct, death is inevitable but...to die in such circumstances, i dunno, i feel bad,pity and uneasy.
I do not know what kind of guy he is obviously but i do know my friend loves him dearly, all of his friends love him dearly and of all the people, his parent...
Life, indeed, is unpredictable and anything can happen anytime...
Wake me up from my dream.
Shame on me for taking everything for granted all these while.
Let me hold on to this belief that from now on i shall cherish life and to live life to the fullest...
To Ziqin's bro, Rest In Peace...
Morning!
Having a cuppa tea and trying to blog about nothing at all...
I've got no news and issues to talk about, except the fact that im dying to go somewhere, anywhere,except kulai. Lol.
Well well my friend invited me to cameron...that is good and i know i'll love it there, i love the weather, i love the peaceful and quiet lifestyle, i love it there!! I've been there, but thats more than a year ago so... should i go? Only thing that bother me is the fact that its december now, i hope its not raining over there everyday...
Second destination! SINGAPORE!! it is very saddening to know that my place is sooo near to singapore and yet i've this unspeakable difficulty in going since like forever? Everytime i go its just for like few hours and then dang~back home. But its hol now! i dun wanna just go for a couple of hours, i wanna go for days so i'll be able to go many many other places that i missed out so far! Can anyone bring me there? Can can???
So i see, its 5th dec already! I cant believe exactly one month before i was screaming out loud for gaining freedom and out of eos... what have i done this one whole month? Nothing. basically nothing. omg...I know when january comes i'll regret this so for a few more weeks to come, i better do something about it.
I was just wondering, why isnt there any professional dancing studios here? Arghhhhh!!
I've got no news and issues to talk about, except the fact that im dying to go somewhere, anywhere,except kulai. Lol.
Well well my friend invited me to cameron...that is good and i know i'll love it there, i love the weather, i love the peaceful and quiet lifestyle, i love it there!! I've been there, but thats more than a year ago so... should i go? Only thing that bother me is the fact that its december now, i hope its not raining over there everyday...
Second destination! SINGAPORE!! it is very saddening to know that my place is sooo near to singapore and yet i've this unspeakable difficulty in going since like forever? Everytime i go its just for like few hours and then dang~back home. But its hol now! i dun wanna just go for a couple of hours, i wanna go for days so i'll be able to go many many other places that i missed out so far! Can anyone bring me there? Can can???
So i see, its 5th dec already! I cant believe exactly one month before i was screaming out loud for gaining freedom and out of eos... what have i done this one whole month? Nothing. basically nothing. omg...I know when january comes i'll regret this so for a few more weeks to come, i better do something about it.
I was just wondering, why isnt there any professional dancing studios here? Arghhhhh!!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Forgotten prayers
The tornados, i realised, will never ever end no matter how hard i prayed and how hard i tried.
The feeling when my heart is being sliced, u'll never know, is worse than dying.
Instead of him wishing him die, just lemme die and thats the end of everything.
Death will never be scary to me anymore after this.
The feeling when my heart is being sliced, u'll never know, is worse than dying.
Instead of him wishing him die, just lemme die and thats the end of everything.
Death will never be scary to me anymore after this.
Lesson of the day
A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'
SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.
SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'
The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'
The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door. The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?
After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.
'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.
'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.
'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man.
'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'
The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled.
Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.
The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.
'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.
'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.
'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Professional blogger
Seriously i wonder what's the job of a professional blogger?
Updating their blog like every hour? Or adding lotsa pics and stuff every now and then?
Im curious and learning towards that but i think obviously im so far from it.
So, lets forget about it.
Just finished watching tv, and now, back to the front of my laptop, doing nothing, oh maybe something new here. listening to trance & techno music? Its new to me of course, and to tell the truth they reminds me nothing but clubbing, which is bad. Im trying to be more sensible here, and to avoid misunderstanding in clubs. Sigh. Yeah its a good way to de-stress once in a while, and to burn off some extra calories, but then its compensated with alcohol anyway so....ends up pointless.
I thought of something. dont ever laugh at me but u know what, i actually feel like taking up dancing lessons. Like, whatever dance, so i can learn, and burn xtra cal, and have fun! Cool huh :)
Oh yeah i shall go hunt for one tomorrow, since my whole family say "Nah forget about getting a job its already dec anyway!"
Im currently reading a book "Ray had an idea about love"...just some random funny book...hope i'll finish it soon and see what other books there for me to read up...tidied up my book shelf today and found out i've got a lot of rubbish in there.Phew i wonder what am i suppose to do with all my spm's books...tonnes and tonnes of them man sigh~~~
Worst still im looking at my piles of uni books now...H&N anatomy, baby patho, lange, marieb...Arghhhh why the hell do i bring them back anyway i never even touch them, like not even once???Maybe i should start tomorrow, oh no,make it this week, so i wont break anymore promises...
Finally, i hate to say this but... I MISS VOLLEY LA!!! rawhhhhh!
Updating their blog like every hour? Or adding lotsa pics and stuff every now and then?
Im curious and learning towards that but i think obviously im so far from it.
So, lets forget about it.
Just finished watching tv, and now, back to the front of my laptop, doing nothing, oh maybe something new here. listening to trance & techno music? Its new to me of course, and to tell the truth they reminds me nothing but clubbing, which is bad. Im trying to be more sensible here, and to avoid misunderstanding in clubs. Sigh. Yeah its a good way to de-stress once in a while, and to burn off some extra calories, but then its compensated with alcohol anyway so....ends up pointless.
I thought of something. dont ever laugh at me but u know what, i actually feel like taking up dancing lessons. Like, whatever dance, so i can learn, and burn xtra cal, and have fun! Cool huh :)
Oh yeah i shall go hunt for one tomorrow, since my whole family say "Nah forget about getting a job its already dec anyway!"
Im currently reading a book "Ray had an idea about love"...just some random funny book...hope i'll finish it soon and see what other books there for me to read up...tidied up my book shelf today and found out i've got a lot of rubbish in there.Phew i wonder what am i suppose to do with all my spm's books...tonnes and tonnes of them man sigh~~~
Worst still im looking at my piles of uni books now...H&N anatomy, baby patho, lange, marieb...Arghhhh why the hell do i bring them back anyway i never even touch them, like not even once???Maybe i should start tomorrow, oh no,make it this week, so i wont break anymore promises...
Finally, i hate to say this but... I MISS VOLLEY LA!!! rawhhhhh!
Those were the days...
These, are just some of the stupid pictures i took, just too bored and tired of writing, so posted up some pics instead. Mizzz my long hair...sigh...and mizzzz those happy days!!!
Traumatized me
Why oh why is this happening to me?
Too much to handle i guess im falling down soon...very very soon...
Too much to handle i guess im falling down soon...very very soon...
Monday, December 1, 2008
BAD
Today is a bad day, very bad indeed, from spilling milo to a 4 hours trip with hot air-con,
Thats it man...LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!
f****************!
Thats it man...LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!
f****************!
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Tanning in your sunray :)
What time will you be here now?
Its a quarter past seven now, uhuh, and im waiting for you...
What you gonna do?When it hits you, you & me i, hold back my shine when i realise,
im getting my tan in your sunray...
And we see, through the mirror that you got me thinking clearer,
and im gonna be under your skies and stares....
Its a quarter past seven now, uhuh, and im waiting for you...
What you gonna do?When it hits you, you & me i, hold back my shine when i realise,
im getting my tan in your sunray...
And we see, through the mirror that you got me thinking clearer,
and im gonna be under your skies and stares....
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Shoppinggggg Spreeee!!!
Weeeee...just came back from Bukit Bintang!
Today, is officially my shopping day and also the day i announced myself "broke"...Argggghhhh!!!
Went out at bout 1plus and got home at 7.30pm.
Went by lrt to hang tuah and supposedly gonna take monorail to bukit bintang station but guess what? When i reach the monorail counter there's this auntie telling me monorail is not working, some technical problem. What the hell???!!
Luckily im the kind of person who can walk and know the way to pavilion from hang tuah station...so i walk n walk n walk...passed through times square, then sungei wang and finally stopped by Lot10...
The one and only reason i stopped by Lot10 is Isetan!! And this is where i got my top and my Guess purse! Yeah!
I totally have no idea how long i spent in Isetan, not like i care anyway, just browse through everything, bags and shoes and clothes and perfumes... I love the feeling man! lol.
And finally when i decided to leave Lot10 and go over to Pavilion, its already 4pm maybe?
Hungry hungry hungry!!!
So i went to pancake house to have a niceee meal...ordered a set that comes with coffee...i love pancake,i love coffee,i love just about everything! Except for the part where that WEIRDO actually charge rm1.25 just because i asked for extra butter... What is wrong with him??!
But anyway forget it, luckily the pancake is nice or else there's no way im ever going back to that place! Haha.
Next stop!Hmmm shop around pavilion, got myself a pair of heels, and yet another top.
That is all but guess whats my latest obsession?
VERA WANG PRINCESS!!!
My goodness the vera wang gift set in Tangs is like PERFECT!!!!
Soooooooo veryyyyyyyy prettyyyyy and attractiveeeeee and i LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE the smell!
How???? It costs like rm306 and by that time im already broke, as in really really really penniless. So, i can only see and admire and love it but not HAVE it. sighhhhh :(
Then again i went parkson to anna sui counter and found something interesting...
I guess in conjunction with christmas, there're a couple of promo packs which are quite affordable!! and i loveeee them still!
Its like a 30ml bottle of either secret wish or flight of fancy plus complementary body lotion, which costs like rm130!!
Another set i saw is like 2 bottles of secret wish, one blue and one pink, both 30ml for rm209...
Anyhow i got no money to buy then so no matter how affordable and attractive they are also i should just perish the thought...HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ!
So, i think thats about it for today. Happy day, happy outing.
Unfortunately, the flipside of the coin is, none other than, being broke and forced to quickly find a part time job and earn some moneyyyyy! Rawhh! and no more shopping for a couple of weeks, unless i find a job or something, oh and unless mummy is there to pay. LOL.
Im happy, wish he's here to share my happiness now :) I miss you! Yes no doubt its YOU!
Today, is officially my shopping day and also the day i announced myself "broke"...Argggghhhh!!!
Went out at bout 1plus and got home at 7.30pm.
Went by lrt to hang tuah and supposedly gonna take monorail to bukit bintang station but guess what? When i reach the monorail counter there's this auntie telling me monorail is not working, some technical problem. What the hell???!!
Luckily im the kind of person who can walk and know the way to pavilion from hang tuah station...so i walk n walk n walk...passed through times square, then sungei wang and finally stopped by Lot10...
The one and only reason i stopped by Lot10 is Isetan!! And this is where i got my top and my Guess purse! Yeah!
I totally have no idea how long i spent in Isetan, not like i care anyway, just browse through everything, bags and shoes and clothes and perfumes... I love the feeling man! lol.
And finally when i decided to leave Lot10 and go over to Pavilion, its already 4pm maybe?
Hungry hungry hungry!!!
So i went to pancake house to have a niceee meal...ordered a set that comes with coffee...i love pancake,i love coffee,i love just about everything! Except for the part where that WEIRDO actually charge rm1.25 just because i asked for extra butter... What is wrong with him??!
But anyway forget it, luckily the pancake is nice or else there's no way im ever going back to that place! Haha.
Next stop!Hmmm shop around pavilion, got myself a pair of heels, and yet another top.
That is all but guess whats my latest obsession?
VERA WANG PRINCESS!!!
My goodness the vera wang gift set in Tangs is like PERFECT!!!!
Soooooooo veryyyyyyyy prettyyyyy and attractiveeeeee and i LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE the smell!
How???? It costs like rm306 and by that time im already broke, as in really really really penniless. So, i can only see and admire and love it but not HAVE it. sighhhhh :(
Then again i went parkson to anna sui counter and found something interesting...
I guess in conjunction with christmas, there're a couple of promo packs which are quite affordable!! and i loveeee them still!
Its like a 30ml bottle of either secret wish or flight of fancy plus complementary body lotion, which costs like rm130!!
Another set i saw is like 2 bottles of secret wish, one blue and one pink, both 30ml for rm209...
Anyhow i got no money to buy then so no matter how affordable and attractive they are also i should just perish the thought...HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ!
So, i think thats about it for today. Happy day, happy outing.
Unfortunately, the flipside of the coin is, none other than, being broke and forced to quickly find a part time job and earn some moneyyyyy! Rawhh! and no more shopping for a couple of weeks, unless i find a job or something, oh and unless mummy is there to pay. LOL.
Im happy, wish he's here to share my happiness now :) I miss you! Yes no doubt its YOU!
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Lost
I've no idea where's the guy i like went...
Seems like he's no longer here. no longer himself.
And im here waiting and hoping everything will be ok again.
LIfe's hard. sucks.
Seems like he's no longer here. no longer himself.
And im here waiting and hoping everything will be ok again.
LIfe's hard. sucks.
Of frustration and irritation
What the f***ing hell is his problem??
I happily went to sch waiting for him only to be greeted by that look, no hi, no smile, nothing.
Fine.
He wanted to meet his friend, so i waited downstair, and then when i met him again i ask "Where u wanna go?". Oh damn guessss i asked the wrong question again cos as far as im concerned he trying to say as though im asking him to decide every single thing in my life.
Fine.
Started to get sien. Even more sien when that look doesnt wanna go away.
And under such condition i know i should just go home, to avoid any sort of conflict.
Fine.
Then messages coming like nobody's business saying "i hate you. you make me sad. blablabla"
Oh come on!! Who the hell are you to even say u hate me when u started all these craps??
Do you even have the right to feel sad when im the one who's supposed to be sad?
And saying i broke my promise to acc him as he clean his room.
FINE FINE FINE.
Yeah i promised before so okay im no gonna break my promise.
OK.
Buy my lunch and walk over to his place.
Reach. Eat. Alone. For one instance i thought im invisible... to HIM at least.
Fine again.
Finished my lunch and he's happily sleeping.
HALLO???i thought u said u wanna clean the room?
ALRIGHT.Maybe i should start first since there're so much to do, thinking maybe he need help or something.
Asked for the key,enter the room, and heard him asking me something though not very clear.
OK so i should answer his question and i DIDDDDD answer his question, just that i cant talk as loud cos im having a bad sore throat.But u think he even CARE??? F*** OFF he's only good at screaming at me and accuse me for punishing him? What punishing him? What the f***ing punishment he meant? When did i ever punish him? Sometimes i think he's mad.
Hey come on! IM just a human ok? i've got feeling too ok? Wow u seriously think the way u treated me is worth praising?
Yeah right and now ur saying i caused all the suffering and pain and nonsense??
Ask YOURSELF is it YOUR problem or MINE??
Honestly im speechless now. I've NEVER met such a guy in my entire life and i wonder what did i do wrong to even know him. I cant believe such a happy day can be ruined just like that.
This is the worst experience ever...and seriously if this sort of thing were to happen even for once more i'll just have to stop this shit.
What am i suppose to do? Im trying to be good and again and again and again i've been misunderstood and ill-treated, just like shit.
For goodness sake, i've got no obligation to be like how you want it to be man.
Im me and thats it end of story.
No more argument. No more question.
Whether you like it not, take it or leave it.
I happily went to sch waiting for him only to be greeted by that look, no hi, no smile, nothing.
Fine.
He wanted to meet his friend, so i waited downstair, and then when i met him again i ask "Where u wanna go?". Oh damn guessss i asked the wrong question again cos as far as im concerned he trying to say as though im asking him to decide every single thing in my life.
Fine.
Started to get sien. Even more sien when that look doesnt wanna go away.
And under such condition i know i should just go home, to avoid any sort of conflict.
Fine.
Then messages coming like nobody's business saying "i hate you. you make me sad. blablabla"
Oh come on!! Who the hell are you to even say u hate me when u started all these craps??
Do you even have the right to feel sad when im the one who's supposed to be sad?
And saying i broke my promise to acc him as he clean his room.
FINE FINE FINE.
Yeah i promised before so okay im no gonna break my promise.
OK.
Buy my lunch and walk over to his place.
Reach. Eat. Alone. For one instance i thought im invisible... to HIM at least.
Fine again.
Finished my lunch and he's happily sleeping.
HALLO???i thought u said u wanna clean the room?
ALRIGHT.Maybe i should start first since there're so much to do, thinking maybe he need help or something.
Asked for the key,enter the room, and heard him asking me something though not very clear.
OK so i should answer his question and i DIDDDDD answer his question, just that i cant talk as loud cos im having a bad sore throat.But u think he even CARE??? F*** OFF he's only good at screaming at me and accuse me for punishing him? What punishing him? What the f***ing punishment he meant? When did i ever punish him? Sometimes i think he's mad.
Hey come on! IM just a human ok? i've got feeling too ok? Wow u seriously think the way u treated me is worth praising?
Yeah right and now ur saying i caused all the suffering and pain and nonsense??
Ask YOURSELF is it YOUR problem or MINE??
Honestly im speechless now. I've NEVER met such a guy in my entire life and i wonder what did i do wrong to even know him. I cant believe such a happy day can be ruined just like that.
This is the worst experience ever...and seriously if this sort of thing were to happen even for once more i'll just have to stop this shit.
What am i suppose to do? Im trying to be good and again and again and again i've been misunderstood and ill-treated, just like shit.
For goodness sake, i've got no obligation to be like how you want it to be man.
Im me and thats it end of story.
No more argument. No more question.
Whether you like it not, take it or leave it.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Cute stuff
Oh btw i've this cutest umbrella ever...from 100yen jap shop...LOL bought it under desperate condition cos its raining and i forgot to bring my freaking umbrella.
Oh btw again, its a "so-called" gift from Tommy! Hahaha..
Time to bath dirty girl!
Oh btw again, its a "so-called" gift from Tommy! Hahaha..
Time to bath dirty girl!
Eventful wednesday
Oh yeah im right here at KL now.
Reach home at about 3pm..unpack unpack unpack...
Went pyramid at 5pm,then Yuen at 6.30pm, back to pyramid at 8.30pm...
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Something special
Yeah! Did something extraordinary today and feel contented!
Weeeee...
I love today!!
How about you?
Time to pack for tomorrow! KL here i come! :)
Weeeee...
I love today!!
How about you?
Time to pack for tomorrow! KL here i come! :)
Goodbye emo
Aiks my blog is getting tense & emo nowadays.
I shall stop being emo come on its holiday now!
Will be going to kl tomorrow...
Want to, need to and will enjoy the rest of my holiday and
yeah stella will be at kl so yum chan session with her become possible again!
Lily too!Quickly finish ur freakin pharm exam and go out with me...Miss you!
And hopefully can meet my a-lvl friends i really miss those days.
Felix come back faster, u tell me more bout ur nus life and i tell you mine in imu!
I've been listening to hitz.fm everyday and i realised they really like to air just the few same songs, thank god the songs nowadays are quite acceptable...Oh btw, anyone with jay's latest song please inform me, i'll say thank you and be grateful dont worry :)
I shall stop being emo come on its holiday now!
Will be going to kl tomorrow...
Want to, need to and will enjoy the rest of my holiday and
yeah stella will be at kl so yum chan session with her become possible again!
Lily too!Quickly finish ur freakin pharm exam and go out with me...Miss you!
And hopefully can meet my a-lvl friends i really miss those days.
Felix come back faster, u tell me more bout ur nus life and i tell you mine in imu!
I've been listening to hitz.fm everyday and i realised they really like to air just the few same songs, thank god the songs nowadays are quite acceptable...Oh btw, anyone with jay's latest song please inform me, i'll say thank you and be grateful dont worry :)
Monday, November 24, 2008
He & He
Last time i thought He's not as good as he is always not there for me whenever i think i need him, i think sometimes he irritate me, i think he is not as serious as i want him to be, and not the perfect someone i wish he could be.
Though he is different but he is quite like him and sometimes i wonder what am i doin with him?and now i think maybe i was wrong.and that maybe i made a mistake by involving him into the story of me and him.He is driving me crazy.I want out from him & him & him & him & him, if you know what i mean...
Though he is different but he is quite like him and sometimes i wonder what am i doin with him?and now i think maybe i was wrong.and that maybe i made a mistake by involving him into the story of me and him.He is driving me crazy.I want out from him & him & him & him & him, if you know what i mean...
The return of ultimate calmness
Let me know when will calmness return safely to me...
Cos i wanna grab it so tightly so it can never escapes from me ever again.
Was hoping to travel to kl tomorrow, unfortunately no ticket left, so can only be back at kl on wednesday. wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun...Honestly the whole trip to kl seems purposeless and even until now i've no idea why the hell do i wanna go kl.Maybe to return the lib book and this reason is totally absurb.raaaaawwwwhhhhh!!!
How can such beautiful holiday be wasted? Wake up man.
and something is bugging me like mad nowadays...
Why the hell am i so emo nowadays? what drives me towards emo-ness???
My life is in a mess now and worst of all i cant seem to fix it right.
Bad. This is really bad.
People you need to tell me what to do...Oh darn no one's gonna read my blog anyway.
Guess i have to share my problem with someone else...
Save me save me save meeeeee...!
I wanna meet you for a long long time and talk talk talk endlessly about everything and do everything we've left outtttttttt for soooooo long....
U've got the wisest advice in the world and i trust u most!!!
I MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
Cos i wanna grab it so tightly so it can never escapes from me ever again.
Was hoping to travel to kl tomorrow, unfortunately no ticket left, so can only be back at kl on wednesday. wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun...Honestly the whole trip to kl seems purposeless and even until now i've no idea why the hell do i wanna go kl.Maybe to return the lib book and this reason is totally absurb.raaaaawwwwhhhhh!!!
How can such beautiful holiday be wasted? Wake up man.
and something is bugging me like mad nowadays...
Why the hell am i so emo nowadays? what drives me towards emo-ness???
My life is in a mess now and worst of all i cant seem to fix it right.
Bad. This is really bad.
People you need to tell me what to do...Oh darn no one's gonna read my blog anyway.
Guess i have to share my problem with someone else...
Save me save me save meeeeee...!
I wanna meet you for a long long time and talk talk talk endlessly about everything and do everything we've left outtttttttt for soooooo long....
U've got the wisest advice in the world and i trust u most!!!
I MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
What's wrong?
WHAT IS WRONG?
and why is this happening all the time?
This is weird, this is bad and this is totally out of control.
I hate this u know, honestly i really hate this!
And nothing can make me stop hating this...
I misssssssss those days a lottttttttt!!!
Where are they? Why arent they here any longer?
Come back to me...pls come back to me...
I cant take it anymore...
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Mismatch decision
Life is hard sometimes.
and when i think about it, maybe im the one who chose to complicate my life when everthing can be just so simple.
What to do.
Decision is made. Everything is done.
There's no turning back.
Live with it and see what it leads to... eventually...
and when i think about it, maybe im the one who chose to complicate my life when everthing can be just so simple.
What to do.
Decision is made. Everything is done.
There's no turning back.
Live with it and see what it leads to... eventually...
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Xmas lover!
Yeah its the one and only time in the year where i can have my very own wishlist!
and its none other than christmas!
Since my birthday this year was a total mess with me freaking out over EOS, i shall make sure i enjoy the coming xmas as muchhhhh as possible :)
My current wishlist!!! As follows...
(1) Lovely lovely Anna sui~~~Flight of fancy, secret wish, u name it~
(2) A purse! Freaking desperate for one now that i lost mineee...
(3) L'occitane's shower gel, scrub and lotion luvvv da smell!
(4) Heels heels and more heels
(5) A nice, warm and comfy GAP sweater mmmm~
(6) Some inspiring books that may change my life?!
Feel so nice having a wishlist eventhough i know its quite impossible but its ok, im happy anyway. Till then. xoxo :)
and its none other than christmas!
Since my birthday this year was a total mess with me freaking out over EOS, i shall make sure i enjoy the coming xmas as muchhhhh as possible :)
My current wishlist!!! As follows...
(1) Lovely lovely Anna sui~~~Flight of fancy, secret wish, u name it~
(2) A purse! Freaking desperate for one now that i lost mineee...
(3) L'occitane's shower gel, scrub and lotion luvvv da smell!
(4) Heels heels and more heels
(5) A nice, warm and comfy GAP sweater mmmm~
(6) Some inspiring books that may change my life?!
Feel so nice having a wishlist eventhough i know its quite impossible but its ok, im happy anyway. Till then. xoxo :)
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Holiday
7 weeks of holiday actually starts today,maybe yesterday.
What should i do throughout this long long holiday?
I havent really think about it, probably because before this i was too busy trying to think about failing my exam and the need to resit...duhh...
Maybe i should find a part time job...and meanwhile be prepared for next semester...and study a lil here and there...just hoping i will not waste my whole precious holiday.
I still cant believe EOS is over.Think about it, i almost screwed up my entire eos.why?
Let me tell you why.Frankly shame on me to even thought of such a stupid thing to do.
The other day when i was sitting for my dental science paper, the questions are all so very very very difficult i couldnt even answer!!( Maybe thats because i skipped biofilm which is a stupid decision...) and under such situation i really couldnt think straight and i really thought of walking out of the exam hall without completing the paper, and tell my lecturer im just gonna sit for the resit paper. and i wanted to tell her i'll just skip the afternoon's ospe paper as well. thats what on my mind at that moment. and i wanted to cry. to run away. and when i look at the paper again my mind is totally blank. empty. imagine the fear i had...sigh...
Then again, eventually i completed the paper(though i leave some blank...) and for some questions i honestly just crapped :( Right after that i've got no mood for anything...and then there's ospe, which is the last paper. I thought im gonna fail so forget about it, and then people keep saying its the last paper, just do everything you can and it'll be over soon. Tommy said forget the saq just do well in ospe and no regret. And so thats exactly what i did. i left everything behind and just concentrate on ospe. In the end yah there's some questions that i totally cannot do.but at least i tried my best for the others. so i learnt something through this freaking exam...
never give up, never think of "no" and "impossible", cos you never know...Just as i thought im gonna fail, in the end i got a B+. how lucky and how thankful im...Sooooo....I'll remember this lesson well, for the rest of my life.
All of a sudden i think the childish,naive,ignorant emmy is gone.
Emmy, finally, is growing up.
What should i do throughout this long long holiday?
I havent really think about it, probably because before this i was too busy trying to think about failing my exam and the need to resit...duhh...
Maybe i should find a part time job...and meanwhile be prepared for next semester...and study a lil here and there...just hoping i will not waste my whole precious holiday.
I still cant believe EOS is over.Think about it, i almost screwed up my entire eos.why?
Let me tell you why.Frankly shame on me to even thought of such a stupid thing to do.
The other day when i was sitting for my dental science paper, the questions are all so very very very difficult i couldnt even answer!!( Maybe thats because i skipped biofilm which is a stupid decision...) and under such situation i really couldnt think straight and i really thought of walking out of the exam hall without completing the paper, and tell my lecturer im just gonna sit for the resit paper. and i wanted to tell her i'll just skip the afternoon's ospe paper as well. thats what on my mind at that moment. and i wanted to cry. to run away. and when i look at the paper again my mind is totally blank. empty. imagine the fear i had...sigh...
Then again, eventually i completed the paper(though i leave some blank...) and for some questions i honestly just crapped :( Right after that i've got no mood for anything...and then there's ospe, which is the last paper. I thought im gonna fail so forget about it, and then people keep saying its the last paper, just do everything you can and it'll be over soon. Tommy said forget the saq just do well in ospe and no regret. And so thats exactly what i did. i left everything behind and just concentrate on ospe. In the end yah there's some questions that i totally cannot do.but at least i tried my best for the others. so i learnt something through this freaking exam...
never give up, never think of "no" and "impossible", cos you never know...Just as i thought im gonna fail, in the end i got a B+. how lucky and how thankful im...Sooooo....I'll remember this lesson well, for the rest of my life.
All of a sudden i think the childish,naive,ignorant emmy is gone.
Emmy, finally, is growing up.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Thank you :)
Thank you for letting me pass my exam.
Thank you for giving me a chance to proceed to sem3.
Thank you for making me believe that everything is possible.
IMPOSSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE :)
Thank you for giving me a chance to proceed to sem3.
Thank you for making me believe that everything is possible.
IMPOSSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE :)
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Friday, November 7, 2008
Why
Why always accuse me for being angry...
Why always think i dun wanna talk to you...
Why keep saying these everyday...
Sigh...sigh sigh sigh...
Why always think i dun wanna talk to you...
Why keep saying these everyday...
Sigh...sigh sigh sigh...
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Pass.Just pass.
I hope i can pass.
This is the only thing i can hope for for now...till 14th nov...
i dont even mind getting a C, or the lowest in the whole class, or being laughed whatever it is,
i just wish i can pass this exam.
IM DESPERATE...very very desperate.
Never felt like this before in my entire life and here i m hoping to pass every single second of my life i cant even enjoy the holiday properly.
I just dont wanna resit i hope this is not too much to ask,
not that i never study for the exam...i did, i really did...
I NEED A CHANGE.
If i were to pass this exam, i will do anything for the coming semesters. i will study like mad like crazy like xiao like sot and will make sure the next coming eos will be the best and the best and the best!!!i promise!
No i should say I SWEAR I WILL.
Just let me pass through this first and most difficult hurdle pls...for once...
and i will be thankful for the rest of my life...
This is the only thing i can hope for for now...till 14th nov...
i dont even mind getting a C, or the lowest in the whole class, or being laughed whatever it is,
i just wish i can pass this exam.
IM DESPERATE...very very desperate.
Never felt like this before in my entire life and here i m hoping to pass every single second of my life i cant even enjoy the holiday properly.
I just dont wanna resit i hope this is not too much to ask,
not that i never study for the exam...i did, i really did...
I NEED A CHANGE.
If i were to pass this exam, i will do anything for the coming semesters. i will study like mad like crazy like xiao like sot and will make sure the next coming eos will be the best and the best and the best!!!i promise!
No i should say I SWEAR I WILL.
Just let me pass through this first and most difficult hurdle pls...for once...
and i will be thankful for the rest of my life...
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Nothing but folly
I totally cant believe i got that wrong.
Carbapenem for gram positive bacteria!!!!!!!!!!
What the hell was i thinking just now?
Mixed n jumbled up everything, thats the only thing im good for.
im officially good for nothing... sigh...
Carbapenem for gram positive bacteria!!!!!!!!!!
What the hell was i thinking just now?
Mixed n jumbled up everything, thats the only thing im good for.
im officially good for nothing... sigh...
Monday, November 3, 2008
Disastrous opening, hopefully not ending
I've just come to know exactly how disastrous an exam can be.
It is beyond imagination, seriously im really screwed!
Is it the time, the syllabus, or is it me?
Maybe i should just accept the fact that im only one of the dumb girls around that are never meant to even be here.
Feeling bad and unmotivated. Plus tonnes of stress, doubts and fear.
Eos, ur just so mean to me.
Why cant u just be kinder, as if u'll listen to me.
It is beyond imagination, seriously im really screwed!
Is it the time, the syllabus, or is it me?
Maybe i should just accept the fact that im only one of the dumb girls around that are never meant to even be here.
Feeling bad and unmotivated. Plus tonnes of stress, doubts and fear.
Eos, ur just so mean to me.
Why cant u just be kinder, as if u'll listen to me.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Best of luck
To me, "thymus", and fellow batchmates,
Best of luck for tomorrow's EOS!
We can do it and we'll all sail through this exam...
To IMU,see you again in Sem3...
Try your best and no regret!
~xoxo~
Best of luck for tomorrow's EOS!
We can do it and we'll all sail through this exam...
To IMU,see you again in Sem3...
Try your best and no regret!
~xoxo~
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Getting it right
I hope this time, i can at least make things right.
Things will work out in the end, and this is exactly what i've been believing...
Be positive, be grateful, have faith!
Things will work out in the end, and this is exactly what i've been believing...
Be positive, be grateful, have faith!
Friday, October 31, 2008
Stupid internet
I hate it when whatever i type for so long is all gone because of the stupid internet connection.
Now that im tired of writing and feeling really sien...
Im not gonna rewrite the whole thing.
Just know that im feeling shit now.
Now that im tired of writing and feeling really sien...
Im not gonna rewrite the whole thing.
Just know that im feeling shit now.
When adaptation jump straight to irreversible injury...
According to what i read in patho book, cell undergo adaptation and then reversible injury and then finally, irreversible injury. So when we apply this into our daily life, this is what happens :
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Emo-ness
I decided at critical time like now,my one and only wish for this coming exam is just to pass.
As in, pass both my foundation and dental science of course.
Be it B or C (A is far from reach...Im trying to not think about it.)...
Just let me pass and i'll be really grateful.
I decided, once and for all, that if im lucky enough to pass my exam, i will study very very very very very hard starting from next semester onwards.
Reason being, with only 3days to EOS and yet you find yourself stuck in the middle of nowhere and there's nothing more you can do about it, this kind of feeling...is unbearable.
IM officially getting EMO now.
As in, pass both my foundation and dental science of course.
Be it B or C (A is far from reach...Im trying to not think about it.)...
Just let me pass and i'll be really grateful.
I decided, once and for all, that if im lucky enough to pass my exam, i will study very very very very very hard starting from next semester onwards.
Reason being, with only 3days to EOS and yet you find yourself stuck in the middle of nowhere and there's nothing more you can do about it, this kind of feeling...is unbearable.
IM officially getting EMO now.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Lovin Me
I decided i will not love anyone except me,myself and I.
I said ME,MYSELF AND I.
To avoid trouble, confusion and heartache.
FFF SSS THHHHH Wuuuuuuuuuuu
Is trouble-free life really unachievable?
Sometimes i wonder why god creates human only to make them face so much problem in their lives.Trying to make us mature and more sensible i guess.But sometimes its just so unbearable it makes me wanna cry out loud and say "i've had enough!!!"
Tired.Disorganized.Clueless.Emotionless.Helpless.Heartache.
At the end of the day,i realised,it just means nothing...
Tired.Disorganized.Clueless.Emotionless.Helpless.Heartache.
At the end of the day,i realised,it just means nothing...
Just some random thoughts
Believe me when i say,i find myself becoming weirder and weirder towards the exam.
Think weirdly, act weirdly, behave weirdly. How come?
Might be some kind of hormone fluctuations or whatsoever...
Haiya basically these are all rubbish.
Never mind i should just summarize my end of eos to-do list :
(1) Saloon-ing to get my hair done
(2) Massage!!Whole body massage...Time to pamper myself :)
(3) Shopping...For clothes and shoes and many many many many more
(4) Watch movies!I dont mean just 1 but many
(5) Club-bin lol. This need to be done to restore my "normalcy"
(6) SLEEP...SLEEP...AND MORE SLEEP...(I want my skin to look good again...badly)
(7) Oh yea and lastly in mind now is...Ultimate plan in dieting...sigh...(I'll make sure i carry this out accordingly.Im serious.)
For all the time i've been day-dreaming about all the stupidest thing to be done after exam, its time for me face the reality that its time for me to study now.
Once again, believe me when i say, NO PAIN NO GAIN!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Happy Birthday!
Happy 20th birthday to myself!
Apparently my only wish for this year is just to pass EOS and move on to sem3...
How sad.
Ooops and of cos,wish me and my family happy and healthy and free from worries!!!
I love you, you love me... :)
Apparently my only wish for this year is just to pass EOS and move on to sem3...
How sad.
Ooops and of cos,wish me and my family happy and healthy and free from worries!!!
I love you, you love me... :)
Monday, October 20, 2008
Happy? Maybe not.
5 days to my birthday!
Happy but know in the end just gonna end up studying at home :(
There goes my precious 20th birthday...sigh...
Happy but know in the end just gonna end up studying at home :(
There goes my precious 20th birthday...sigh...
Saturday, October 18, 2008
My dear model
Its basically a head model i borrowed from MMS...
i actually bring it back home and he's facing me right now lol.
the whole purpose is just for me to study head and neck anatomy
but too bad i rather blog than to entertain him...
Guess i should start entertaining him or he'll leave me by 7 pm later :(
i actually bring it back home and he's facing me right now lol.
the whole purpose is just for me to study head and neck anatomy
but too bad i rather blog than to entertain him...
Guess i should start entertaining him or he'll leave me by 7 pm later :(
Friday, October 17, 2008
Its a weird day
Summative is over,worst still i actually know my result already,plus dental OPSE result as well. Both doesnt look good to me... sad sad sad~~~ Dental OSPE was an utter disappointment, and foundation2 summative is basically... satisfactory but then again, i wish i had done better. I just wanna be one of those who can proudly say, "Oh emm i got about 3-4 wrong...blablabla" instead of "Hmm not bad at least i pass"...Eventhough i got an A-, if not mistaken.
Well according to thomas life is hard, and come to think about it, yeah its indeed hard.for me.right now.
Sudden loneliness is surrounding me...now...
Well according to thomas life is hard, and come to think about it, yeah its indeed hard.for me.right now.
Sudden loneliness is surrounding me...now...
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Late night horror
I hope i'll be able to catch some good sleep after this...though its a bit quite impossible,summative is in 13 hours time.Its really really bothering me but im just so tired i need to sleep.a proper proper sleep.
I love you.You love me.
I love you.You love me.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Haha
What the...
im suppose to say "Hmm life is just so beautiful..."
Not "Hmm is just so beautiful..."
Haizz
im suppose to say "Hmm life is just so beautiful..."
Not "Hmm is just so beautiful..."
Haizz
Sudden happiness??!
23 hours to summative, 25 hours to freedom.
How bad can it be?
Stop complaning!
Hmm is just so beautiful...Love it!! LOL.
How bad can it be?
Stop complaning!
Hmm is just so beautiful...Love it!! LOL.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Emmy is going crazy
I have no idea what am i doing here and why am i writing on my blog now.
This is definitely not the right time to do so but somehow it just happen.??
And yeah, im going crazy thats right.
1 day to summative and i still have tonnes to read.
And im allowing time to pass by every second every minute every hour.
I just want the whole world to know i'll becoming insane in perhaps 10 minutes time.
Till then...
This is definitely not the right time to do so but somehow it just happen.??
And yeah, im going crazy thats right.
1 day to summative and i still have tonnes to read.
And im allowing time to pass by every second every minute every hour.
I just want the whole world to know i'll becoming insane in perhaps 10 minutes time.
Till then...
Monday, October 13, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
countdown to summative
Whenever i look at the calender...i cant help but to feel scared, tense, and disturbed.
But in comparison with some of my fellow classmates...i think im feeling ok, and not too stress.
Just look at me, i still got time to blog while im suppose to be facing my notes!
And now that im overwhelmed some pretty horror thoughts, i believe its time for me to go...STUDY,i mean.
But in comparison with some of my fellow classmates...i think im feeling ok, and not too stress.
Just look at me, i still got time to blog while im suppose to be facing my notes!
And now that im overwhelmed some pretty horror thoughts, i believe its time for me to go...STUDY,i mean.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Post-studymarathon feedback
Its 10.44pm and im officially pulling myself out of this study marathon.
Good to know that at least i accomplished something today...but still, it could've been better i guess.
Completed the scariest ever notes...pharmacokinetics...and hypersensitivity...and chronic inflammation...and half of acute inflammation...and im KO right now.Even my eyes are a bit blur looking at the screen, hope i'll be fine.
Oh yeah, today i learnt something. That, human being is indeed complicated, and unpredictable, and very very hard to please.
Good to know that at least i accomplished something today...but still, it could've been better i guess.
Completed the scariest ever notes...pharmacokinetics...and hypersensitivity...and chronic inflammation...and half of acute inflammation...and im KO right now.Even my eyes are a bit blur looking at the screen, hope i'll be fine.
Oh yeah, today i learnt something. That, human being is indeed complicated, and unpredictable, and very very hard to please.
9.20am - Beginning of study marathon
Yes! Its 9.15 am now and im gonna begin my study marathon in 5 minutes time.
I hope today will be a great day with great achievement as this is the only day where i've got no lecture no lab no pbl no nothing.
So...a whole day ahead of me and im so not going to waste yet another day.
No more nonsense, no more playing sleeping onlining.
3,2,1 Go! :)
I hope today will be a great day with great achievement as this is the only day where i've got no lecture no lab no pbl no nothing.
So...a whole day ahead of me and im so not going to waste yet another day.
No more nonsense, no more playing sleeping onlining.
3,2,1 Go! :)
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Explosion
At this point of my life, it seems like im gonna explode soon. very very soon.
People are irritating me all the time. endlessly. this and that. blablabla. i cant take this anymore!!!
I've got lots and lots of problem and stress at the moment and i've been trying really hard to tolerate and take it easy but... things just not getting any better. Such a shame im in this kind of situation right now.
Im on the verge of crying. Maybe i should cry. Yes i think i should...
People are irritating me all the time. endlessly. this and that. blablabla. i cant take this anymore!!!
I've got lots and lots of problem and stress at the moment and i've been trying really hard to tolerate and take it easy but... things just not getting any better. Such a shame im in this kind of situation right now.
Im on the verge of crying. Maybe i should cry. Yes i think i should...
Just like any other day...
Stress is killing me!
But somehow it seems like i've come to adapt to this kind of lifestyle and im happy with the lecture today...
Im surprised to know that i actually enjoy lectures now,unlike before,but unfortunately this is already the second last week of semester2,sighhh!
Just some additional stuff to add on (If Abir were to read this...) :
Dearest Abir,
Hows UK?Hows Swansea?Hows hari raya?
Miss the raya last year,esp the cookies from your aunt!they're just sooooo unbelievably tasty i cant even forget the taste till now :)
Btw the most important thing is, can you please give me your msn add?
there're just so much to catch up with and i doubt facebook will be the perfect place to send messages and stuff! Need to talk to u! Miss u dearly, and jessica too!
Hope ur doing well over there,and...whats ur blog again?
But somehow it seems like i've come to adapt to this kind of lifestyle and im happy with the lecture today...
Im surprised to know that i actually enjoy lectures now,unlike before,but unfortunately this is already the second last week of semester2,sighhh!
Just some additional stuff to add on (If Abir were to read this...) :
Dearest Abir,
Hows UK?Hows Swansea?Hows hari raya?
Miss the raya last year,esp the cookies from your aunt!they're just sooooo unbelievably tasty i cant even forget the taste till now :)
Btw the most important thing is, can you please give me your msn add?
there're just so much to catch up with and i doubt facebook will be the perfect place to send messages and stuff! Need to talk to u! Miss u dearly, and jessica too!
Hope ur doing well over there,and...whats ur blog again?
Monday, October 6, 2008
Satisfaction
Good to know i completed something meaningful today!
Let's see...i finished intro to pharmaco, drug & receptor interation 1&2, autonomic pharmacology 1,2 & 3.So im happy.Yes very happy indeed!!
Sorry i have to begin my blog of the day with such a thing,i come to realise that for the past few weeks,other than imu-related stuff, i seriously do not have any other interesting juicy topics to talk about.Wish my life is somehow more vibrant than what i am having now...sigh...
Another shocking news to announce...i'll be getting my OSPE result this coming wednesday...frankly,i've got nothing to say.Just with all my heart...i hope i'll be able to pass the exam and really, i'll be really happy to get a B. Bless me...pray for me.......
Let's see...i finished intro to pharmaco, drug & receptor interation 1&2, autonomic pharmacology 1,2 & 3.So im happy.Yes very happy indeed!!
Sorry i have to begin my blog of the day with such a thing,i come to realise that for the past few weeks,other than imu-related stuff, i seriously do not have any other interesting juicy topics to talk about.Wish my life is somehow more vibrant than what i am having now...sigh...
Another shocking news to announce...i'll be getting my OSPE result this coming wednesday...frankly,i've got nothing to say.Just with all my heart...i hope i'll be able to pass the exam and really, i'll be really happy to get a B. Bless me...pray for me.......
Sunday, October 5, 2008
10 days to summative!
Alright, so this aint funny anymore.
Summative is in 10days and what have i done?
immuno(cant remember), parasito(not too good), microbio(cant remember), patho(almost but dont think i remember), pharmaco(never started), comm med(blekkkk)...
Is this good or bad?its pretty bad huh?i know...
But how?summative is in 10days time its so freaking near i feel like crying and peeing in my pant right here,right now!!!
I guess,maybe its just my brain aint functioning well enough,suddenly i just feel like i wasted the whole week of holiday basically doing nothing.How funny to recall that i planned so well before the holiday so that i wouldnt waste any single second of the hol and yet i did just that and now,zoooooooom,hol's gone!
what else can i say? ritonavir indinavir nelfinavir saquinavir...protease inhibitor...just a proof i did study today...need more? perhaps nystatin?its a topical antifungal used against candidiasis, crytococcosis,blastomycosis etc. And while i still remember, let me just fill you in with the 6 steps in atherosclerosis lol : fatty dots > fatty streaks>intermediate lesion>atheromas>fibroatheromas>complicated lesion. cool but well,maybe thats the only thing i remember for today :( :( :(
Summative is in 10days and what have i done?
immuno(cant remember), parasito(not too good), microbio(cant remember), patho(almost but dont think i remember), pharmaco(never started), comm med(blekkkk)...
Is this good or bad?its pretty bad huh?i know...
But how?summative is in 10days time its so freaking near i feel like crying and peeing in my pant right here,right now!!!
I guess,maybe its just my brain aint functioning well enough,suddenly i just feel like i wasted the whole week of holiday basically doing nothing.How funny to recall that i planned so well before the holiday so that i wouldnt waste any single second of the hol and yet i did just that and now,zoooooooom,hol's gone!
what else can i say? ritonavir indinavir nelfinavir saquinavir...protease inhibitor...just a proof i did study today...need more? perhaps nystatin?its a topical antifungal used against candidiasis, crytococcosis,blastomycosis etc. And while i still remember, let me just fill you in with the 6 steps in atherosclerosis lol : fatty dots > fatty streaks>intermediate lesion>atheromas>fibroatheromas>complicated lesion. cool but well,maybe thats the only thing i remember for today :( :( :(
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Tired-ness
sometimes...i just need to know some ways to combat fatigue and lethargic-ness...
i know the best way is to sleep.but, sleep???how the hell can i sleep while ppl are all widely awake drowning themselves in microbio or patho or immuno or parasito or pharmaco,or basically just whatever.
Sometimes...i wish i can just be like that particular someone...
i know the best way is to sleep.but, sleep???how the hell can i sleep while ppl are all widely awake drowning themselves in microbio or patho or immuno or parasito or pharmaco,or basically just whatever.
Sometimes...i wish i can just be like that particular someone...
Sleep...Essential??
Oh god its 12.41am and im still awake.
what on earth is going on with me??
i so need to sleep now...my eyebag and dark circle is getting worse day after day after day...
please save me!
what on earth is going on with me??
i so need to sleep now...my eyebag and dark circle is getting worse day after day after day...
please save me!
Friday, October 3, 2008
Idle-mode
Oh lala...
Congrats me,its 11.03am,supposingly i should be studying for like 3 hours already but no,not at all,i havent even start studying...so freaking scary and this is really getting worse now.
so i shall go take a quick shower and drown myself in tonnes of notes...give me the strength to do it!!
Mantra of the day : I can do it i can do it i can do it!!!
Congrats me,its 11.03am,supposingly i should be studying for like 3 hours already but no,not at all,i havent even start studying...so freaking scary and this is really getting worse now.
so i shall go take a quick shower and drown myself in tonnes of notes...give me the strength to do it!!
Mantra of the day : I can do it i can do it i can do it!!!
Thursday, October 2, 2008
The life of dentist-wannabe
For all dentist-wannabe...
This is how your life's gonna be...waking up at 8am in the morning studying until lunch time,have a quick lunch and continue studying till the evening,have a quick dinner,study till 12am at night and go to sleep.
It sounds scary,but for all the hours and hours of studies,how much can u remember?seriously how much can I, EMMY CHAN, remember?For this, i am not sure... its a pretty scary thought to know that the effort you put into your studies hoping to have some benefits out of it, at the end of the day the tendency for me to forget what i've studied is whole lot higher than the fact that i can remember every detail of the notes.
Im getting depressed.stressed.panic.unloved.bored.tired.HELP ME.
People,if you were to read this,please tell me what should i do?summative is in 2 weeks time.EOS in 4 weeks time.and i have hundreds of lecture notes to cover.Hear me?hundreds of lecture notes.not book.so if were to include books as well, it'll be like...thousands pages??
and out of that thousand pages,how much can i remember?1%?10%?50%?
Frankly everything else seems meaningless.Just let me know one thing.Just let me know this one particular thing and i'll be happy as can be...
Tell me : Emmy, you'll pass summative, you'll pass EOS, u'll sail through all the exams and complete your studies...
Tell me that now people...reassure me...
This is how your life's gonna be...waking up at 8am in the morning studying until lunch time,have a quick lunch and continue studying till the evening,have a quick dinner,study till 12am at night and go to sleep.
It sounds scary,but for all the hours and hours of studies,how much can u remember?seriously how much can I, EMMY CHAN, remember?For this, i am not sure... its a pretty scary thought to know that the effort you put into your studies hoping to have some benefits out of it, at the end of the day the tendency for me to forget what i've studied is whole lot higher than the fact that i can remember every detail of the notes.
Im getting depressed.stressed.panic.unloved.bored.tired.HELP ME.
People,if you were to read this,please tell me what should i do?summative is in 2 weeks time.EOS in 4 weeks time.and i have hundreds of lecture notes to cover.Hear me?hundreds of lecture notes.not book.so if were to include books as well, it'll be like...thousands pages??
and out of that thousand pages,how much can i remember?1%?10%?50%?
Frankly everything else seems meaningless.Just let me know one thing.Just let me know this one particular thing and i'll be happy as can be...
Tell me : Emmy, you'll pass summative, you'll pass EOS, u'll sail through all the exams and complete your studies...
Tell me that now people...reassure me...
Monday, September 29, 2008
Am I still a blogger??
My goodness!!
Cant believe it has been more than a month since i updated my blog.
Bloggie forgive me for this...im darn darn darn busy with just too many stuff!
Firstly,its about my dental OSPE, on 23rd september. what can i say?
Its so stressful and the tension just come out of nowhere...im so glad its over but
i wonder what's going to happen on the day i get my result slip...pheww hope i can get
something sensible and acceptable,just please,for goodness's sake,dont ever let me get any grade lower than B...and i'll be fine.
Secondly,raya holiday.What the...seriously how can they say its a holiday when im suppose to be mugging on foundation2 24/7 like mad??OK lets face it.maybe i go online and go play like once in a while,but the rest of my time is obviously going to be filled with books and notes and worst of all...im staying at vista throughout the week while supposedly i can go home and have my nice bed and nice food.darn.how can they ever treat me this way??
Well well...maybe this is just what medicine school is suppose to be.
Face it Emmy, stop complaining!
Phew what else to say?Love life?Lol sounds interesting but my love life at the moment is like a bunch of tangled strings that can never be entangled.At least thats what i feel it is.
Imagine you have to choose only one between 2 guys, and the thing is you do not know who to choose, not cos afraid of hurting the other, but scared of being regret in the near future. sometimes you just wanna drag everything till the end. but at the end of the day, decision is still mine. whats wrong with me? im just some desparate stupid girl. i seriously wish there's something call a "deciding machine" to help me decide who to choose, so can save my time and trouble. i dont even know who i like most at the moment, worst case scenario huh??
I decided,i should blog more.feel so much better everytime after blogging. do people create blogs cos they know there's something bout blogging that confers therapeutic effects to the bloggers?
If it is, salutes to blog-creator...whoever ur...
Cant believe it has been more than a month since i updated my blog.
Bloggie forgive me for this...im darn darn darn busy with just too many stuff!
Firstly,its about my dental OSPE, on 23rd september. what can i say?
Its so stressful and the tension just come out of nowhere...im so glad its over but
i wonder what's going to happen on the day i get my result slip...pheww hope i can get
something sensible and acceptable,just please,for goodness's sake,dont ever let me get any grade lower than B...and i'll be fine.
Secondly,raya holiday.What the...seriously how can they say its a holiday when im suppose to be mugging on foundation2 24/7 like mad??OK lets face it.maybe i go online and go play like once in a while,but the rest of my time is obviously going to be filled with books and notes and worst of all...im staying at vista throughout the week while supposedly i can go home and have my nice bed and nice food.darn.how can they ever treat me this way??
Well well...maybe this is just what medicine school is suppose to be.
Face it Emmy, stop complaining!
Phew what else to say?Love life?Lol sounds interesting but my love life at the moment is like a bunch of tangled strings that can never be entangled.At least thats what i feel it is.
Imagine you have to choose only one between 2 guys, and the thing is you do not know who to choose, not cos afraid of hurting the other, but scared of being regret in the near future. sometimes you just wanna drag everything till the end. but at the end of the day, decision is still mine. whats wrong with me? im just some desparate stupid girl. i seriously wish there's something call a "deciding machine" to help me decide who to choose, so can save my time and trouble. i dont even know who i like most at the moment, worst case scenario huh??
I decided,i should blog more.feel so much better everytime after blogging. do people create blogs cos they know there's something bout blogging that confers therapeutic effects to the bloggers?
If it is, salutes to blog-creator...whoever ur...
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Volleyball nightmare
Believe me. Volleyball sucks when ur in a tension-filled state.
why?cos i've been through it and i know how sucky it feels!shit.
13/08/2008 = wednesday = volleyball match against m206...
Shame on us, shame on ME cos we lose the match!
how could i did such stupid,silly,unforgivable mistakes???
it never occurred during the practise, never even occurred when we're training with the guys,
so why the hell did it occur during the match??!!
Are they strong? No they're not.
Are they really skillful? No they're not.
Are they destined to win us? NO THEY'RE NOT.
And here they are, celebrating the winning as easily as if it falls from the sky,
cos of us. of the mistakes we made and for the insufficient faith plus overpowering stress and tension. stress kills, im informing all of u, stress DO kills...
Its truly a nightmare and its truly embarrassing and its truly disappointing.
I suppose all of my teammate plus my coaches are utterly disappointed in me,
they strongly believe i could do it, im a great player.
But what did i do?
I did rubbish.....
Cheeeeeeer up Emmy!
U dun give up because of losing one single match. U get up and brace yourself up and be confident that for all the coming matches, u'll conquer!
People! U hear me???
I CONQUER!!!
why?cos i've been through it and i know how sucky it feels!shit.
13/08/2008 = wednesday = volleyball match against m206...
Shame on us, shame on ME cos we lose the match!
how could i did such stupid,silly,unforgivable mistakes???
it never occurred during the practise, never even occurred when we're training with the guys,
so why the hell did it occur during the match??!!
Are they strong? No they're not.
Are they really skillful? No they're not.
Are they destined to win us? NO THEY'RE NOT.
And here they are, celebrating the winning as easily as if it falls from the sky,
cos of us. of the mistakes we made and for the insufficient faith plus overpowering stress and tension. stress kills, im informing all of u, stress DO kills...
Its truly a nightmare and its truly embarrassing and its truly disappointing.
I suppose all of my teammate plus my coaches are utterly disappointed in me,
they strongly believe i could do it, im a great player.
But what did i do?
I did rubbish.....
Cheeeeeeer up Emmy!
U dun give up because of losing one single match. U get up and brace yourself up and be confident that for all the coming matches, u'll conquer!
People! U hear me???
I CONQUER!!!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Ooops!
Ooops announcement for Abir ( If only she did view my blog ) :
Miss, puhlease do not laugh over my stupid blog with stupid article which is like a 12 year old girl's diary!my blog is 100% not as sophisticated as yours and once again, DO NOT LAUGH AT ME!
Enjoy...
Miss, puhlease do not laugh over my stupid blog with stupid article which is like a 12 year old girl's diary!my blog is 100% not as sophisticated as yours and once again, DO NOT LAUGH AT ME!
Enjoy...
Congratulations
Congrats me everyone, i've safely survived my first week of sem2 at IMU!
The 8.30 to 5.30 schedule has taken me away from the world, no tv no radio no internet no magazine no nothing and yet, i feel fine.
Im fine. Yes, im fine.
Secondly, i missed the potluck picnic. How sad! Nevertheless, its alright since it saves me from millions calories and a burn in my pocket. Worst still its at the klcc park which is really far from bukit jalil, i suppose it'll tire me badly if i did go anyway...
Thirdly and the best of all, I got myself a GUESS handbag! Im totally in love with it :)
Guess i should stop being a shopaholic and hunt for endless handbags and clothes... if i were to continue, it'll be beyond rescue......
Finally, people, go watch Red Cliff! But people, do not go if u hate war, go if u love tony leung as much as i do. i think i dont love him, im just soooo addicted to him!!! LOLX~
The 8.30 to 5.30 schedule has taken me away from the world, no tv no radio no internet no magazine no nothing and yet, i feel fine.
Im fine. Yes, im fine.
Secondly, i missed the potluck picnic. How sad! Nevertheless, its alright since it saves me from millions calories and a burn in my pocket. Worst still its at the klcc park which is really far from bukit jalil, i suppose it'll tire me badly if i did go anyway...
Thirdly and the best of all, I got myself a GUESS handbag! Im totally in love with it :)
Guess i should stop being a shopaholic and hunt for endless handbags and clothes... if i were to continue, it'll be beyond rescue......
Finally, people, go watch Red Cliff! But people, do not go if u hate war, go if u love tony leung as much as i do. i think i dont love him, im just soooo addicted to him!!! LOLX~
Thursday, July 17, 2008
COP kills!!!
Frankly, COP do kills!
For goodness sake the report is definitely killing me!
Was it COP's fault or is it my fault?
I should've written the report like 2 3 weeks ago but instead i happily wait till the last minute to start doing it. Im a lazy bum. A serious, big lazy bum!
But the again, COP aint interesting and aint catchy enough to attract me, at all!
let me tell u what im suppose to write in the report...
introduction, background, methodology, results and discussion, reflections.
tell me! if it were u, will u like it? let alone love it...
Im going back KL soon and im so gonna undergo some deadly fatique period!
Sem2 isnt kind anymore...
For goodness sake the report is definitely killing me!
Was it COP's fault or is it my fault?
I should've written the report like 2 3 weeks ago but instead i happily wait till the last minute to start doing it. Im a lazy bum. A serious, big lazy bum!
But the again, COP aint interesting and aint catchy enough to attract me, at all!
let me tell u what im suppose to write in the report...
introduction, background, methodology, results and discussion, reflections.
tell me! if it were u, will u like it? let alone love it...
Im going back KL soon and im so gonna undergo some deadly fatique period!
Sem2 isnt kind anymore...
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
5 more days and im one sem older!
Yeah right.
my semester breaks is coming to an end and here i m,
doing practically nothing but a facebook, friendster and bloggie nerd!
i wonder will it be a disaster if i start having internet connection at vista!!
hmm by the way summative result for foundation1 is out.
got a B+. should i be proud of myself or shame on me?
God knows...cos my aim is a B and i got a + more lol!
the verdict is, i believe i have to work much harder starting from sem2, its not funny anymore.
Its medical school, and it requires hard work, i dare not goes against it!
so wat now? EMMY! Study harder work harder play lesser!!!
cut down my shopping time, lepak-ing time, dreaming time and i shall be fine!
whenever i forget i made this promise myself, i'll just look back into my bloggie to avoid myself from breaking promise!
Good enough! i have a dream! and i made a promise today!
Hah guess the coming sem will not be that bad after all...yippee~
OPTIMISM MAKES PEOPLE FEEL SOOOOO GOOD...
my semester breaks is coming to an end and here i m,
doing practically nothing but a facebook, friendster and bloggie nerd!
i wonder will it be a disaster if i start having internet connection at vista!!
hmm by the way summative result for foundation1 is out.
got a B+. should i be proud of myself or shame on me?
God knows...cos my aim is a B and i got a + more lol!
the verdict is, i believe i have to work much harder starting from sem2, its not funny anymore.
Its medical school, and it requires hard work, i dare not goes against it!
so wat now? EMMY! Study harder work harder play lesser!!!
cut down my shopping time, lepak-ing time, dreaming time and i shall be fine!
whenever i forget i made this promise myself, i'll just look back into my bloggie to avoid myself from breaking promise!
Good enough! i have a dream! and i made a promise today!
Hah guess the coming sem will not be that bad after all...yippee~
OPTIMISM MAKES PEOPLE FEEL SOOOOO GOOD...
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
Precious Semester break
Oh my dear precious sem break...
why do u betray me this way???!!
The truth is, i've done nothing but eat, sleep, online, watching tv, and drinking coffee!
How pathetic...
seriously i got no friend to go out with, just because all of them are already at KL with their own uni life,
second : i got no enough cash to indulge in everyday shopping spree, although mega sales is ON right now!
third : the increase in petrol rate makes granpa goes "Stay at home, dont waste petrol, its EXPENSIVE ahhhh...blablabla"
And that "happily" leads to?
Gaining weight plus being a full-time couch potato!
oh god... this is so not cool!
Worst of all, i got the shock of my life when i try to check my mail and something popped out.
guess wat? IMU ALERT sent me an email!!
The content?
It says : Dear student,your foundation one summative result is ............
See. IMU is kind of cool huh?
why do u betray me this way???!!
The truth is, i've done nothing but eat, sleep, online, watching tv, and drinking coffee!
How pathetic...
seriously i got no friend to go out with, just because all of them are already at KL with their own uni life,
second : i got no enough cash to indulge in everyday shopping spree, although mega sales is ON right now!
third : the increase in petrol rate makes granpa goes "Stay at home, dont waste petrol, its EXPENSIVE ahhhh...blablabla"
And that "happily" leads to?
Gaining weight plus being a full-time couch potato!
oh god... this is so not cool!
Worst of all, i got the shock of my life when i try to check my mail and something popped out.
guess wat? IMU ALERT sent me an email!!
The content?
It says : Dear student,your foundation one summative result is ............
See. IMU is kind of cool huh?
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Happy Bday my 1st Bloggie!
Aha!!!Having my 1st blog at the age of 20 isnt something to be proud of.
Shame on me,but still,congrats i finally have a blog of my own!
Thanks to Angela, who inspires me lol~
Miss her mean-ness and wonders when will i be able to see her again...
Shame on me,but still,congrats i finally have a blog of my own!
Thanks to Angela, who inspires me lol~
Miss her mean-ness and wonders when will i be able to see her again...
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